God the great unknown, the infinite creator also made the unpredictable wind. Just because you have a sailboat and a compass, you cannot expect him to always move you in the direction you desire. He will give you the wind, but are you a prepared sail? “Calm Seas never made Great Sailors” – FDR
When in physical pain, decouple and eliminate the emotions that stem from pain. These emotions can rapidly multiply and hurt you more deeply. The emotions from pain are meaningless connections to the past where you second guessed yourself. They come to mock, trouble you about the “if” and “if only”. They are emotions full of assumptions ungrounded in reality. Don’t carry them especially in pain, they are sure to hurt more. Handle pain without emotions, work on it as towards a solution. Good Luck. Be Well.
Constantly points at things, and firmly tell you that this or that is important.
Constantly points at you, and firmly tell you that you are not that or not this.
And they are grossly and annoyingly wrong on both accounts. Always Do You Boldly and Joyfully. Only God the great unknown balances the books, no living or dead has ever altered it.
In any moment, equally; there is life and death. This G-paradox is similar to the Schrodinger’s cat; it illustrates quantum superposition with one discernment. The distinction is the separation of matter and antimatter and their juxtaposition to each other. In any moment of life, there is equal probability of life and death. In fact, both always exist simultaneously next to one another in the universe.
A Father witnessing the birth of a child, while right outside the hospital, a racoon loses its life being run over by a car. This is duality of life and death always co-exists, it temporarily delineates like matter and antimatter, which demonstrates life and birth as separate events occurring on a timeline.
For reference, Schrödinger’s Cat is a thought experiment devised by the Austrian physicist Erwin Schrödinger. It illustrates quantum superposition, where a cat in a sealed box is considered both alive and dead until observed. It highlights the paradox of quantum uncertainty and the role of the observer in physics.
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God timelessly places a simple wholesome truth in front of us, and through many religions he conveys this. But We run away from this consistently. Our lack of trust in him and in us due to our conditioning makes us stray away from this foundational truth. God says Leave everything and come to me. But do we ? ever ?
No, and of course this is not easy, and no he is not testing us, he is not judging us, and he is definitely not transacting with us as many priests and preachers tend to make us believe through their interpretation of religions. In fact to the contrary, God is helping us with this covenant, for us to forge together with him, he sees us trapped in our own doings, in our own troubles he gets us more than we do.
We may attribute our struggles suffering to something or someone.While it may be the case, yet only you, in your mind who is enduring all this can release yourself to him. Only you, no matter the circumstances can go to him. For it is you who holds the door shut, not him. And also remember it is the infinite him, he never built that door either that you hold shut. It’s our human and social conditioning that creates it to.
God the great unknown claims you, calls you, says to you: LEAVE EVERYTHING AND COME TO ME. And by this he implores you; to place him above all and neither is he asking you to walk away from your duties the society has positioned you in either. He implies you place him above all in your mind and heart. Many sages monks all over the world have taken this truth to the fullest sense in the material world too. They have physically left everything to go to him. You, placed among your duties and societies can also leave everything in your heart to him, to place him above all else.
Because only Then you understand his infinite worth. And also by that he says; leave everything, and I will give you everything and beyond.
Please think about this to fullest even if its just for a moment. In our world and our understanding; everything was named before you came, yea sure you named your plant, cat, dog or child. But that’s not the basal point, that’s just perpetuating status quo or the convention of what came before you.
I want to submit to you, shed light on the fact that everything, everyone, everywhere, is already named. You are told this is this or this is that. Everything is told to you as this or that. Just think about how it subtly limits your thinking and imagination. You are limited in your understanding from the get go. Once you call a crow a crow, its always going to be a crow. I am sure some find the convenience in it all but I plead with you, that there is more to life than convenience. So just do this one thing for me….
Do this one thing sincerely, even secretly, even momentarily and wholeheartedly for just yourself. You, you in your love, through your experiences and in your appreciation, choose a name for God, not the name that was given or that you were told to use or used. Watch this transform you forever!
Being Grateful is a moving sensation that runs through your body, resets you in the moment. It’s not a mantra or daily affirmation that is practiced senselessly.
It’s a moment of surrender of your self fully to that gift you have received for which you are unconditionally grateful.
starting your day with this and having many moments throughout your day is what is Prayer.
Sorry, but No chants, no memorizations, no verses will get you there without this clarity and humility. All praise to the unknown amidst my pain and grateful for the moments. APTTU.
A question propped in my mind probably from seeing the world affairs. And my mental and physical state of helplessness about it all. Nature holds creation and destruction. A volcano when it erupts doesn’t stop for a village or trees. It has a purpose or existence equivalent to anything else of similar magnitude. A lightning strikes wherever the conditions are right for it to strike. Nature presents creation and destruction equally. So why must humanity choose morality? why good is a right choice? In War or conflict there are two sides. Both are right according to them and both are wrong according to the other. So what is good; a relative perspective or is it a moral absolute? How can anyone shamelessly strive for moral absolute when they are ignorant of theirs? Like I eat meat, I also love my pet, how can I have or deserve a moral absolute ? How often do we even retrospectively ask? And does it even matter if good is a baseless choice, a favorable desire, a mathematical higher value but far from an absolute value? what if wanting good is a desire too, an opposing ask?
Mind goes into an inexplicable silence, part fear and part bleak emptiness. Does good matter?
I confess, from my personal experience I seem to easily align with God in an empty stomach than with a full one. I intend to keep it half-full or half-empty moving forward. May he permit me to stay. APTTU
A man in his lifetime should get to feel the love and loyalty from at least one animal, best animals for these special bonds are elephants, camels, horses, cows, raptors, big cats and large breed dogs. They are bound to change him forever. It’s an inexplicable bond between two souls. It’s a rare bond and a gift of a lifetime. Even heaven doesn’t present this opportunity to him.
Your Mind is the only element in your body that can keep up with the speed of light. One day this too will be undoubtedly proven; through quantum mechanics. That consciousness is quantum. But for now know that messages from God, move through you at speed of light. When and if your mind can be still, undistracted, and trained to be vigil to catch these lightnings moving through you, then only then you progress perhaps even transcend eventually. Be under the sun, observe such things to become clear. All praise to the Unknown.
sometimes, you take for granted the love and care you receive like daylight, expecting it to be there every day only to realize that its far more precious than daylight. Grateful for the unconditional love I receive from you J.
Truth is the entire world operates on caste system from your birth. As soon as you are born you are told you are this, you are that, you’re white, you’re brown, you’re black, you’re rich, you’re poor, you’re christian, you’re muslim, you’re low caste, you’re high caste, you’re low-IQ, you’re high-IQ. You have this you have that up to a genetic level.
You’re told every _____ thing labeling you , except that YOU ARE A HUMAN BEING, and we ALL are human beings. And It’s an incredibly beautiful planet we live in. Work, and live like you love it. By the time you realize this on your own accord and wonder if we can all work together. Its _____over. To those who manage to control this defective narrative, _______.
Amidst all this nonsense, to those who do live beautifully and care for this planet and its beings. My love and best wishes. Sincerely. Be the light. I am sure earth and the heavens hold you dearly.
All seekers of the great truth have two trials to overcome. 1.Overcome unbearable mental suffering and 2.Overcome unbearable physical pain.
These two will push you to your limits, break you beyond your known limits. Consider yourself lucky if both occur simultaneously. You will at times desire ignorance over truth. Means to numb all the pain and suffering that you are experiencing.
You will be tempted and perhaps even find the average lives lived by so many around you more enjoyable, more manageable.
And yes man can start to seek from comfort, but he will not know the depth he ought to see. But when he journeys from pain, he will know. That is the test, that is the construct to understand the dichotomy of the universe, creation and destruction. Enjoy this truth, yes laugh at your pain, Mortality is greatest equalizer. Marvel at what you conquer. It is the only way to a wholesome understanding. APTTU.
In any and every moment you cannot let your memories and emotions from the past grow, weigh on you uncontrollably. This will derail and waste your days. Focus on only the few thoughts of action and movement absolutely required for the moment you are dealing with. Execute without a ton of unnecessary emotion and internal self expression.
Operate with minimal internal baggage. Be nimble with thoughts and emotions first.
Positivity and happiness are conscious intentional choices one makes. You can choose those when you drop the unnecessary bags you carry. Ride light!
Pic credits- Movie Dune and Electric Bike Producers
The dichotomy is this; there are needs of the Body and needs of the Mind. Almost all of us are busy or kept busy, attending only to the needs of the Body using our mind. Comfort, Sickness, Pleasure, Pain, Money, Homeless and so on. Only when you unconditionally make time and attend strictly to the mind, understand its current state, its operational boundaries and what lies beyond, you will be anywhere near capable of receiving the truth. This may even require the sacrifice of being called wasteful or irresponsible. But only the truth will be your guiding light in this lonely ridiculed journey. Sometimes not only you have to go slow to go fast, you have to actually stop reset to go fast. Many in the daily grind cannot, will not grasp this risky endeavor. When you are ready from the pause, you will become unstoppable. And only then your mind can even begin to grow inner workings to tame, control your body. Good Luck and Gods Speed.
Whether you believe in God, or not believe in God, both are absolutely acceptable paths of life. Yes. Because God demands neither of us. God is a presence to realize not a mandate to force upon anyone nor yourself. God is a heartfelt inner surrender, not a bootcamp of or for life. People’s desire to be right, to be deemed better among others demands such petty often violent compliance, not God. God demands no recognition from no being, he is beyond all that. Only the petty fools among us demand obedience. Truth needs no words, nor tongues nor ears. Truth is ever present and ever lasting. It’s available to all, like air, like land, like water, and like the stars. It’s for all who seek. Let no fool or fools take this away from you.
We all have seen enough violence in the name of God. Humans who demand their way as the only way will use God as their symbol for obedience to them not God. God is in freedom but so is Mans wastefulness. Your intentionality, your rigor upon yourself matters, your discipline for unquestionable unbiased truth matters. Only your disciplined mind can save you from its own perils and with even a glimmer of the ever present God he can set you free towards to the everlasting truth across this modality and beyond. You will find that inner surrender and alignment towards the eternal. I have said enough. Those who understand this will find me.
It’s easy, and great to be spiritual when the stomach is full, the body has all the comforts and the mind is oblivious. That’s why so many lately are awakened spiritual healers and divine beings!
“Recognizing is not Understanding, and Understanding is not Surrender.”
Let me; Recognizing the concept of god is not the same as understanding the presence of god, here we lose most people, most are unable to discern this. Religions stop many here. And next; Understanding god, god’s presence is not the same as surrendering to god. The hardest. Here we lose all including myself. All Praise to The Unknown, whom others call God.
When God moves you, don’t be sitting around questioning it. Move with him, all else is idiotic. He can move the clouds and the sun, he can move you too.
When injustice hits you, it never comes alone. It surfaces every injustice you have endured, observed throughout your life. Which is why it’s difficult to endure each one. Only one’s tenacity iron will and his true peace in God will be his armor, his unwavering strength against these undeserving blows.
You are the majestic butterfly that dotted the flowers, bored quickly and constantly seeking the next beautiful flower in the garden. Whereas I am ugly the dirt covering this earth, getting stepped on, gnarly; constantly covered with manure, but diligently securing the seed, the rain, the roots for the innocent plant to blossom those momentary flowers you come to visit and dismiss swiftly. But know this; You too will lay motionless upon me one day only to be absorbed into the manure for the same seed to grow. We are not the same butterfly. We never were. I know my purpose, and place. Do you ?
Have you endured the same again and again in life ? Does it feel like the cycle never ends. He is not punitive, but there are things we have to overcome with intentionality. He is infinitely patient and resourceful to allow it to occur until we overcome. Perhaps we create the repetition while he patiently awaits a different outcome. And you may rush to assume that these are about judging, understanding others, wrong, they are actually always about understanding oneself. Not of your innocence or weakness but actually of your arrogance and ignorance. Your ego will not permit you to accept this truth. And that’s the best proof for this very truth stated here. This is the biggest lesson missed by almost all of us, me included.
The World outside is not in our control, but the world within us is.
And the final lesson here is, that this world within also resides within God the Great Unknown. Therefore, this truth when fully understood, encapsulates karma, rebirth and expressions of all life. God repeats until you don’t. All Praise To The Unknown.
Never let the deplorable common fools and losers bring you down to their level. They are masters of their craft, they will recite laurels of it. They started all the same but never moved to know any truth. So, firstly; Don’t let your emotion hijack a reaction. The temptation will be the highest when your core holds correct values. But urgently seek, rather rush to calmness immediately on exposure. Breathe Intentionally. Deep Breaths in Silence. Second Be absolutely slow to react and avoid any impulsive self harm. Remember your poor Dad how he failed in this. Third and Most Importantly, APTTU, remove hatred, repulsion, achieve forgiveness by centering in God the unknown, seer of all things. This yoke too is not yours to bear. Lastly as he the great unknown guides, ensure that your given penance remains unaltered, resolve through physical exercise, endurance and staying within Gods infinite clarity. All Praise To The Unknown.
Your Journey is always alone, but keep good company.
One of my favorites: JC
Humanity actually resides in consciousness not in our outward appearances and senses. Because in those we are no different than animals. None at all. We discern life and shape our outlook internally. Even the greatest of relationships between war generals or between lovers has limitations and boundaries that are impossible to overcome. It is bound by the laws of nature. Joy and suffering for instance can transfer without contact, it’s a feeling, a radiating feeling at best. We care, love, feel for others and ourselves. But there is a difference, a degree of separation between the two individuals, there will always be. It cannot be forgotten or ignored, as that lands in ignorance and foolishness. Your pain or joy, your realization or ignorance is ultimately yours alone. You may impact a lot of people, but even in that the greatest impact will always be within you first. knowing this sets truth free yet helps set guardrails. APTTU.
Religions are God’s languages to speak to all of us on earth. Does much get lost in translation among us, of course, we are humans after all. Who am I to judge one over another. But there is divine poetry in every language and it’s heavenly. I may speak only one, but I consider myself lucky to have heard and experienced many. All praise to the Unknown.
The more brilliant your mind is, the more likely it will be negatively exposed to today’s digital platforms. Hence it runs the increased risk of taking higher damage. But if it is properly and thoroughly warned of this issue, it also has the higher probability of not being impacted.
In purpose and pursuit, being brilliant and kind is secondary, it will get you in but not stay with you. Additionally rather more importantly, one must be committed, intentional, disciplined and courageous. For the path continues to unfold only for those few. The rest add weight than value.
Because in purpose and pursuit it is not the timid who survive, it is the bold, the relentless who do. Who are not afraid of defeat, not afraid of darkness, who raise again and again when they fall, because they have died once already, they are fully committed, they have unwavering rigor, it is they who force the unknown path to yield, to unfold.
The timid and immature who don’t understand this no matter how kind and brilliant will only slow progress, merely can spectate the path forward. For they don’t understand the agony, the struggle from defeat, the pain, the loss that was all suppressed, surpassed, fought within, from which emerges the singular focus of one’s purpose and pursuit. It’s a gnarly process the timid never have the mindset for, they cannot even sample it. The path is never easy, while there is always room for kindness, that doesn’t move things forward. Commitment does, discipline does, intentionality does and the will and courage moves the needle. In this game, Defeat is your best friend who is ready to stay any day and achievement is your lover who keeps moving away.
Be Kind, But be More Disciplined and Intentional. Be Well.
All souls within all beings quietly rejoice in all of life’s movements, i.e. both joy and suffering. Yes. Because it’s simply here within each to experience all things. Like all the rides in amusement parks; some are fun and some are scary, and some are thrilling, all the more they are all used and present in the park. Most end up riding all kinds of rides.
Truth is the soul sees no difference between one’s joy and suffering. It simply observes experiences the magnitude of both without interference, through its presence within the body. We are only the sensor, our soul is the true experiencer and the god the unknown is the ultimate seer or observer and the final experiencer. This is a difficult truth.
This is realized in a moment or few moments because it is temporary and cannot be permanent. But when you are lucky enough to connect with your soul, in that brief moment you will immediately realize both suffering and joy is immaterial. And there is immense gratitude for your mere existence itself. That is a truly profound realization that can only be remembered after but cannot be continually experienced or sustained.
You can through strict meditation, and in extreme states achieve that reconnection and clarity again. This cannot be taught or formulated down. It can be spoken of like this, poorly! It is a self realization that anyone can attain and it is a true state. But our existential reality is the counter weight to this duality of life and understanding perhaps for good practical reasons of life. I have lot more questions too. I know it sounds ridiculous to conclude suffering and joy are same to the soul. But that’s the learning. Be well.
It took me a full four decades to seek your forgiveness. And almost three of the four living in frigid cold every 6months, filled with pride I continued in my ignorance. You were quietly protecting, but I kept avoiding you. Now you visit us here with your usual schedule. But I am miserable when I don’t see you. My body shivers without you. Most of all I lose all hope when I don’t see you. Please forgive me. A rock has more clarity of you than me. Forgive me.
In ancient times, in books of searches by the wise before me, they worshipped you. In some parts of earth they still do. I totally get it, I would too. They called you the seer of all things like the eye in the heavens as you make us see all things.
I will always want to bow in your infinite light upon us. I will always remember to pause when I see you blessing us all. In some parts of the earth may you be merciful for they perish in your immense strength, earth seems to punish them too. I don’t know. I am grateful like every plant, flower, and living being who thrive in your glory. Each time you leave us, you leave a wake of memories that tug all of my past, and you part with a powerful promise of a new beginning. I have lost loved ones in your absence. Neither am I the same in your absence. But I appreciate the much needed respite from you as its equally essential for all life.
Dear Sun, the star assigned to nurse this earth. The shepherd of our travel through the universe. I understand your majesty, forgive me for I was a child when I cursed you for my hardships. I blamed you for life’s disappointments. I lately noticed you are losing your patience too. I am nothing, you may hear a million prayers offered to you daily. Maybe all this is, is just my soul cleaning its sin against you and convincing itself to move forward in harmony, perhaps rather childishly. I am grateful to you the shepherd, the guiding star of my ancestors and my generations that may come before your sight. I raise my hands together, and bow.
Being grateful is not an anecdote to feel good selfishly. Being grateful is a starting point towards helping others. Only then does it actually multiply within you and around you. Servitude trails Gratitude.
Whatever religion you practice. Please don’t limit Your God to only whats written or spoken. Chants or Prayers, fasting or yajnas. No matter the rituals and beliefs, always seek humbly, allow the infinite God to reveal all things to your mind, be open, be humble, be true to yourself without the thin veil of ego nor the curtain of ignorance.
He is infinitely abundant and infinitely present. Listen to the quietest sounds of your heart, and from the stillness of your mind they don’t lie, at least not those words untainted with your desire. God the unknown, speaks from within when the heart is pure void of deceit, ego and pride. He who permeates all things in this universe will never abandon your heart or your mind. It is us who drops his jewels in the ocean of desire and ego. God the unknown always places them in our hands and hearts in every moment.
Don’t ask from God the great Unknown, Give, Give yourself to God.
He needs no sacrifice or chants or donations or gifts from you. We do all that to appease our senses, wants and guilt from others. We do all that to remind ourselves and others of him but not for him. We do it perhaps to help others, or we do such things often because the people or the society we live in demands that of us. Over time we defend it and teach rest to defend it. But that’s not the core discussion here. The unknown needs nothing from us neither is he a demanding and punitive God who will remove mercy from you when you don’t. Such are tales told by desperate Men seeking power desperately. Skewed optics from strangers who cared less of God the unknown and you.
God never pushes or removes the air that you breathe. He makes it available for you, but you still have to breathe. That’s the way. He doesn’t need you or anything from you. But you need him. Not to gain glory, or fame in this world, not to amass wealth or such. Sure, they may be given to you. But if those are why you seek God. Good luck finding him, what you may find instead is terrifying, a creation of man, an accumulation of sin of all men before you; and it will ultimately deceive you. No, however; what you receive from God in your true surrender is inexplicable, only you and your soul can experience this wholesome satisfying truth. Even if it is just a brief moment, it gives an everlasting direction for the remainder of your life. You have now a choice and a path. Wise men and women of the past have shared their journey of such pursuits. Some stayed on this course till their last breath. Yes, it is worth this lifetime and beyond. What are a few decades compared to ten billion years or more. How can one complete this infinite journey in a very minuscule amount of time called life. No, we are not that fortunate but we are fortunate enough to know and share this truth.
We all seek knowledge and wish to experience God, but we utterly fail to realize God’s answers don’t use words or even languages sometimes. How can I describe something in words which doesn’t exist in the premise or context of any words spoken. Such is the surrender no matter how infinitely brief or as consuming as an entire life it can be.
In all ancient texts written and realized this very truth remains unaltered though variedly interpreted by men seeking glory versus celebrating Gods’. It is also important to note, that those who see the world fully cannot help but be naturally drawn into this noble pursuit and journey. Both the poor and wealthy ultimately seek this as they all end up with the same “why” and wander one way or another, painfully or emptily. All never ending “reason” without a ‘.’period, is enough to get you started.
But those who see this world with only a lens to amass things to satisfy their senses will never lead this journey. They give labels like safety and security, thin veils covering the self-deceit. But those who seek with a pure heart, rest assured for them the things they need for their journey will always be provided no matter how long or short their journey may be. Life is a departure and death a return in his eyes, so do not judge any life upon scales laid by empty men on this planet. He is the judge and deliver, he provides and takes as he wishes. A tree’s leaves are its own, they belong to the sun, the rain, the wind, and finally the ground from which the tree started the cycle.
Therefore, don’t ask of God for things, Give yourself to God. Surrender your pride, your ego, your will to him the unknown. And watch him guide you majestically. Don’t be fooled to expect guarantees of hope, nor comfort nor joy in your surrender. May you find peace as soon as you can, for its never in the beginning like many expect it to be. Remember that we have all grown to be tainted in our hearts from the moment we began to crawl, we have over time drifted far from God, so therefore one must endure, objectively discern their senses, always check if their ego interferes or deceives them in this eternal surrender for many, many fall into this trap. It is the nature of ego. A mechanism created for self-preservation that quietly controls all mechanisms when left uncontrolled.
So carefully, and enduringly, Let God the great unknown show you his infinite possessions of this universe and wisdom. You shall bow to be his witness in this world and beyond. Be Well. Written as received. To know why I gave a gender to the great unknown refer to previously received words. “received words” refers to my want to surrender to the unknown and a rejection of self. By no means must it be interpreted as I am of any importance here, in fact it is to state the very exact opposite, these are not my words as my cognition can merely serve as an observer to report the grandeur of his eternal movements in all of us, and this infinitely beautiful universe. All praise to the Unknown.
Leadership is simple for simple Men like me who don’t subscribe to the so called three day immersive leadership seminars in vegas or follow the regiment of those airport leadership books.
Leadership comes down to this, when you have completed your tasks from the vantage point you had. Even after all is done and bygone, those who you led, served still come to you to genuinely ask of your wellbeing and share theirs. There is a sparkle in their eyes and a joy, hope, belonging they can’t describe when they are with you. No matter how brief that encounter is. That’s leadership well done. Those who get servitude know this all too well. And you part with them with the same servitude with whatever is left in you. That’s fine Leadership in my books.
Dedicating this to the Dads who are not here with us in 2026 but who will always be remembered as Legends and Lions. And to all the new Dads. Be well.
God the unknown’s movements are infinitely nuanced and abundant; that you can actually experience it in every fraction of a moment if you converge enough attention, to stay in his presence. And at first if and when you do, you will be perplexed and readily dismiss it, perhaps even runaway due to all of our current conditioning. But may you persist and continue to seek the invisible so it may become clearly visible; that you too may be marveled and humbled. All praise to the Unknown.
Relinquish the pursuit of endless curiosity. While there are abounds to stay curious in this world. Gods intention for you is not to find your, or his imaginary boundaries, but to become still to appreciate his infinite presence both within and around you. All Praise to the Unknown.
My problem is I can sit and stare, gaze at things that people may consider nothing for hours when in the inside I am completely lost in my wander, miles away into an abyss with endless trenches of past and future. Perhaps I am witnessing infinity unfold within or perhaps I am listening to time, or just maybe Gods movement across the infinite realms everywhere or perhaps I am just incapable of holding a useful thought to deliver valuable action.
And at last, when I return I am saddened at how indebted and useless I am to those who love and tolerate me for such waste of time. Written as I witness snow falling as though with intention to bring chaos on everything it touches. Forgive me, oh this hopeless soul.
The truth is I don’t know how to be grateful to you and often I wonder if I even have the capacity to do so God the Unknown. All praise to the Unknown.
The self has taken this body to experience, seeking pleasure is common way for the body to experience all its senses and the interaction with its surroundings. But the path to pleasure and stagnation or convergence to pleasure is where one loses self
When one moves into a house whether a homeless man or a wealthy king, they both seek shelter from the weather in that house. But soon enough they will have to leave the shelter to see the world, to do, to survive. To live one must leave that place of shelter and comfort.
Similarly, the body and its senses have to be left behind and tamed to see the universal truth and the existence of the omnipotent that surrounds all of us, the cautionary tale with the senses is that it may trap you and give you glimpses of the world like through a windows but with no door to open, to leave its clutch.
A lit candle is found easily in a dark room, but it also decays faster and runs out of time quickly. So is true enlightenment and revelation. You will renounce your body. Your being starts to transcend and that may appear as decay to others. It can show in health, career outlook , personality or in relationships. But it will reveal itself when your transformation if real it’s somewhat inevitable.
My hope is to share my understanding and not to judge you but hope that you may continue your own understanding with a kernel of mine as you see fit and an unlit candle may lay without decay but its never found because its in eternal darkness. What good is it if it lay there forever but never fulfilled what it was meant to do.
Recently, we were working on a criterion for a notification system, which required me to compute certain conditional logics. Essentially it came down to codifying, a type of: if this then that factor output. But this made me pause and reflect if I or us we all apply similar approaches to life and living. Sure, enough I did and wasn’t proud of it on some key aspects of life.
My mindset of If I am doing good, I will definitely do good is fundamentally flawed, this only indicates lack of defined character or rather malleability in it. When I am rich, I will give to the poor is a stupid logic. It indicates that my virtues are operating on base monetary denominator. This could be played like an accordion in life, shrunk and stretched.
Virtue cannot and does not work like that. You do what you can always, that is an exemplary embodiment of empathy and virtue. And I don’t wish to subscribe to a % either because that again is no different that transaction. Helping should be guided by the heart as much as the brain. Virtue always starts at the heart. Virtue is not an overflow mechanism but a constant flow permanence, only that eventually defines your true nature. I stand corrected, rather kneel in this truth. Introspection is disturbing but also equally telling. Grateful. APTTU.
Wrote this first and foremost as a note to self as much as to anyone else. Its easy to forget our responsibilities. It’s easy to play the victim card, it’s easy to live carefree when you have everything. It’s easy to be distracted, to be occupied all the time. It’s easy to forget humanity. It’s easy to cast judgement or use religious or past life karma nonsense as the answer to someone’s suffering. Who is anyone to cast judgement upon another?
We forget the interconnectedness of human experience. We give labels and compartmentalize our observed world. Come to believe this is the highest form of foolishness and willful ignorance. Can’t partake once you understand, see or seek. Crushing a human soul, letting one suffer while we ignore and carry on is inhuman. It tears-up some of us. This is not a reminder, this a cry from the soul of its own lapses. An intermittent burst of intolerance to the suffering we create, tolerate, ignore and penalize. Sickens the soul, rots the heart. Inhumanity is not out there its within. Seek humanity before divinity.
Do not despair, like every drop of water eventually finding its way into the ocean. Every heartfelt thanks, every grateful act, every kind action you do for others and this planet, will eventually and always reach God. All praise to the Unknown.
But do not make things a transaction or a matter of contrived obedience, he expects neither. He demands nothing from you. He only desires you to realize and see the infinite blessings you already carry. Be Well, All praise to the unknown.
When you seek answers to some of the basic yet profound questions of human existence. You will occasionally encounter the most extraordinary answers within you, they are simple to grasp yet shake the very grounds you stand on for comprehension. This is one of those for me trying to reel out of the depths of a loss and asking what am I and what is anyone and any being.
“You, a temporary shell on a transient energy of light”
There is something both comforting and self-losing in these words that gives me a peace never found before.
Man has a strong propensity to be childish and bullish at the same time. His ego becomes his only guide and he brings God the great unknown within his temptations and places like another book in his bookshelf. Read for certain days and times, tucked away for the rest. This is absurd and foolish. Man thinks he can take on as many as things as he must. He is told of duties and responsibilities that place the central map of his being. He treats his mind like a landfill, rummaging through whatever is dumped in it. Some are even proud of the size of the landfill; he mocks those building walls around their landfills to prevent the continued unexpected erosion. He finds it irresponsible when some trying reduce the mess inside their minds, he calls it careless or selfish or irresponsible. He fails to see the effort to preserve sanity and rise to higher awareness. He further mocks time by filling it with stuff to keep his mind and body busy, he wanders without purpose or intention yet filled with arrogance and calls it quest or worse; duties and responsibilities. His view becomes his only view, and his view sadly was never his to begin with, but what was told, because he never investigated it. His mind is a landfill, a dumping ground, a cesspool. He then desperately rushes to find his god, like an idol he wants to place on top of the landfill. Like insurance policy for the landfill! His is idol is bound to sink and disappear in the landfill.
Sadly, this is the world of most beings. Its is understandable, often inevitable. There is no easy answer here or pathways to point to. But this understanding can pave the way to a path that is truly his own. First like in any landfill, one must reduce the intake, then equally important; one must also push out what has been there inside rotting and consuming him eternally. There is no harm in creating a space amidst the chaos for worship and alignment, it is essential. But it has to be done intentionally with a requirement to fall back to it, to centralize it in his being so there is to be growth, there is to be addition and subtraction. Addition of alignment and subtraction of everything else in the landfill. Like a shrine being built while clearing the mess. There will be storms and setbacks, but he builds, rebuilds with focus and commitment. This shrine gradually grows and consumes him where the place is no longer a landfill, but a place of singularity to the unknown (God), there will be order in what’s left of the landfill and yes there will still always be some in samsara life. But, now he has a fortified shrine with a singular path and alignment. From a landfill to a shrine, there was a path paved to the ultimate source. His words, sound, ways revibrate in all time. Written while being lost and filling up my own landfill. All praise to the unknown. I saw beautiful miracles to be reminded of life above the landfill. All praise to the unknown.
Every arena, every social platform, digital and real world constructs are steadily branching into two groups; the Haves and the Have-nots. The Haves, don’t even participate in any of them, while meticulously crafting them for the Have-nots. They have their lavish exclusive lives discreetly attended to without interference from climate change, pandemics, and wars. And this is the obvious appalling reality almost all of the have-nots deplorably ignore. They are kept busy hating, and exploiting themselves and each other, while squandering for leftovers.
We are told perfection is impossible or just an aspiration, and not reality. But I tell you, Kindness IS perfect. Selfless acts are perfect. Service to others is perfect. No matter how imperfect an existence maybe, such perfect deeds count and ultimately define life in totality.
We are socially brainwashed to be inconsiderate, to be greedy among other selfish acts. It’s not our default nature, we didn’t survive these many years just because we were violent, we cared for others. Thats why in today’s world, ‘most who have most things that they need, still suffer endlessly because they feel imperfect and incomplete. They are further wasted to believing they are imperfect in their appearance, and looks. Vanity is programmed from birth. There is perfection in this world, I have been a witness and recipient of many kind and selfless acts from strangers. I stand as a witness to perfection that exists abundantly in this world. All praise to the unknown.
Modern spirituality is the new Narcissism. I am sure you all know someone who fits this bill. These days I don’t call myself spiritual or seek spiritual minded people. I say I am to deter religious fanatics or tease them into arguments. But I find spirituality without the practice of unwavering dharma or unconditional good deeds as a new form of narcissism in modern societies. Their selfies, yoga poses, “healing quotes”, eastern scarfs, AI designs, its degrading and narcissism written all over. If you don’t know anyone then most likely you are the one. Bottom line, If you carry ego embodied by inaction, instead of action which must emanate from the bedrock of kindness in your spiritual journey – then; a) it ain’t spiritual; for starters. And b) you ain’t journeying anywhere either. I know I am risking my internal balance by sharing this, but it has to be said. Perhaps a thorn is needed sometimes to remove a thorn. Ego is an unchecked self preservation and survival mechanism brewed in an hostile environment of selfishness, hatred and desperation. The irony is, it ends up creating the very same environment it once battled against. Spirituality starts, seeks, and ends in Silence. Forgive me for this noise. All praise to the unknown. If my heart gives in let the eternal silence take over it too. APTTU.
When peace visits you the first time, you shoo it away like a disturbance, to frantically look for happiness. And after a thousand times happiness left you abruptly you start wondering what was that thing you drove away. When peace visits the second time, you receive it reluctantly, like a child asked to eat her vegetables. You yearn for the same old happiness that you felt so many times yet which never seemed enough. And after happiness leaves you another thousand times you start to think of peace, you realize peace can feel empty but it can be with you eternally. And when peace visits you the third time, you sit with it quietly. This time gratefully for its presence, you embrace peace like a warm blanket in a cold room. You prepare to be at, and end all things peacefully. And if happiness finds you again you instantly seek peace within it, as peace is always present in all things. And when happiness leaves again, you are not bothered for peace still sits within you. May peace be upon you. All praise to the unknown.
Being grateful is not a fluctuating stock market index, it is a fixed value. Just because you know someone or yourself more today doesn’t mean you can stop being grateful to someone for how kindly they treated you yesterday.
I don’t think people change. I think our opinions of people change or they grow with context and experiences which is quite fair and understandable. But it is important to equally remember how grateful you were for them in your life, and it is important to carry that gratefulness forward throughout that relationship whether it be your mother, your friend, your coworker, the shop keeper. It may even make their day for all you don’t know! Because your gratitude is like your integrity or bond with no expectations, with no reservations that is true gratitude, being grateful for who they were to you.
This is a note to self as much as it is for anyone who reads this. I find myself forgetting to be grateful to/for the people around me. Many of my relationships have started with thoughts of gratitude. My gratitude towards them was one of the first things I locked-in, I experienced in that relationship, and that gratitude cannot change in my mind simply because I know more about them now or I have changed. Being grateful is a constant carried, not a variable that is adjusted. All Praise to the Unknown.
The ultimate mental trap is when you get comfortable within it and mock others who come to release you. Gods ways are both profound and playful. He can reveal our limitations in both forms. When one holds on to his ego with a death grip, it is like the man holding onto the iron bars of his trap, while the door is wide open to walk out. Mercy be upon those like me. All praise to the unknown.
Throughout time, only males desired to create robots with human form and shape. Because males are void of divine motherhood. Before in time, they perfected human forms out of stone that stood still, and now they discovered they can articulate such inanimate limbs for actions. They have resorted to real and virtual humanoids. Woman seldom are inclined to this madness as they carry the power of creation. Designing robots to look like humans is one of the most idiotic natures of mankind. Mankind’s propensity for chaos is an understatement. It’s like he always resorts to pretend play god. he marvels in his accomplishments when he is supposed to marvel at the grandeur of his creator. And like how he continues to defy god, his creations are bound to repeat the same. when you have two hands, you need both hands to worship, holding immature pride in one and god in the other never reaches god the unknown. I seek forgiveness for my simple mind. APTTU.
As I have come to observe, that which you are more than welcome to confirm with your own purest objectivity. That within all non-derivative original religions and to date spiritual teachings at their highest. There is a clear irrefutable convergence of the so called truth; including the human understanding of god the unknown, and the human mind. However, it also seems like the reflection of the limitation of human capacity in translation and sharing bumping against time periods with same outcomes. But no matter the conclusion on the finality of this query, the serendipitous understanding as it stands, has been so for thousands of years to date. I cannot pose like many to describe this understanding in any satisfactory manner to another human being in any form. As neither am I that gifted nor patient in my senses. To borrow the words of a wise man from the past, I too wish to be a mere signpost of my time for those who care or can afford to seek. I am overcome by the strong feeling that it is still unbelievably perplexing and incredibly spectacular. A true human moment that is once in a lifetime realization.
APTTU.
I was very curious how an AI model processes such information so I asked an AI LLM Gemini to explain my writing, it writes like a student taking notes for a test prep:
AI:
That’s a profound and complex statement!
Here’s a breakdown of the core ideas you’re expressing:
💡 Core Message: Universal Spiritual Truth
You are observing and asserting that:
* Convergence of Truth: Across original, non-derivative religions and the highest spiritual teachings, there is a clear, undeniable agreement (convergence) on what is called “truth.”
* Key Agreement Points: This convergence includes the understanding of God/the unknown and the nature of the human mind.
🤔 Secondary Observations: Limitations and Mystery
You then introduce some nuanced reflections on this convergence:
* Human Limitation: The agreement might also be a “reflection of the limitation of human capacity” in translating and sharing this deep understanding across different time periods. In other words, perhaps all humans are hitting the same understandable, yet limited, ceiling of expression.
* Enduring Serendipity: Regardless of the “why” (whether it’s divine convergence or human limitation), the resulting understanding has been consistent for thousands of years.
🗣️ Personal Stance: Ineffability and Signpost
Finally, you express your personal realization and approach:
* Ineffability: You state you cannot satisfactorily describe this understanding to another person. It’s beyond your capacity to translate the realization into words (“neither am I that gifted nor patient”).
* “Signpost” Role: You borrow the idea of a “wise man from the past” to say you simply wish to be a “mere signpost”—a pointer for those who are ready, willing, or able to seek the truth themselves.
* The Feeling: The realization itself is described as “unbelievably perplexing and incredibly spectacular”—a powerful, “once in a lifetime realization” moment.
In short, you are saying:
You’ve realized that all the world’s original, high-level spiritual traditions arrive at the same fundamental, unifying truth about existence and the mind. While this agreement is astounding, you believe the full realization is impossible to convey perfectly through language. Your only goal is to point others toward this magnificent, mind-blowing realization for them to discover on their own.
Humanity through eons of evolution and constrained civilizations, is programmed to think and decide fast for its survival. But it is also why it has foolishly developed several gross rounding errors in its current state. We are made to, and told to rush from day1. Consequentially, we have devised ways to avoid the present to seek a mirage of future. And due to this impalpable negligence, we have trained our minds to judge quickly. We pride in mistaking that to be decision making. And add absorbing others narratives into that speed, hate and ignorant judgement is born. Each of our worlds though on the same planet is slightly different and some vastly different even if they are few yards apart. Like that of the difference between the homeless and a proud homeowner with manicured lawns. Top all this with an untamed ego, judgement is dished in plenty. In the eyes of god the unknown this is sheer ignorance and a vile sin. For a man who suffers this suffers more in his own judgement than through his judgement of others. Repentance is the first step that must lead to an evergreen humility and presence with god the unknown. One must realize who is he in front of all that was made outside of their own body. Nothing inside nor outside belongs to them. Was given and will be taken without one’s knowledge, for that is the final judgement. All praise to the unknown.
No matter the bond or relation, sometimes some people are moved aside in your life so your path forward is uninterrupted, and some are brought in so you may realize what you are meant to achieve, and fulfill your purpose. This is a difficult concept to comprehend, as the mind will keep reverting to what and who it knows or used
to, no matter the interference and toxicity that may keep occurring. This clarity of vision can only arise when one centers on god the unknown, and marches towards him or is still in his purpose for you, no matter how small or big it may be.
Most of us on earth are here to take, very few are here to give. Those few were gods intentional act of kindness. Sit with that for a moment before your uneasy, uncontrollable mind, wanders off to your path of decline. If you wore your ego to read that you might proudly claim you are giver when its unfathomably untrue, or you may question what’s wrong in taking, isn’t that what the rest do?
If you ever connected with your inner being, your soul, it will reveal the truth as always. In anyone’s path, knowledge is revealed first whether with or without ego. Knowledge may allow you a glimpse at God, but it is no where near the infinite. Knowledge is insatiable for many; they build their proud sandcastles upon it only to be wiped in due time. But knowledge that is revealed is finite itself. Many resign to this first pit stop in their journey, simply for their hearts are seeking fame and fortune. Knowledge seeking is no different than our busy screen scrolling or doom scrolling, in fact it is the interior cause to such digital decay in human society. Hence in the past and the present when it came to seeking, out of fear of self or social misguidance; great ones who sought God abandoned fortunes for they knew what was received was finite and meaningless. Human’s hearts’ are like Wells, all were meant to carry the water of hope and truth. But many fall short in their depth, and many run dry too soon. Any one who understands Wells knows, you have to tap into the water bed underneath and there are layers that one must dig to keep the well with water of life. And those few who are here to give, are like that eternal well of hope, they do not care for knowledge or fortunes, they are the reason why flowers blossom. If you are lucky, you may come across one of them. Hold them tight, show them they are loved and you are filled with a duty to honor them, and their life. God will smile. Written by a taker. All praise to the unknown
A simple but basal step towards your enlightenment is honestly realizing at minimum your 2nd and 3rd layer thoughts of each of your self-facing, primary or operating thought. The next step getting that under control. Then third is…. :) not so fast, stick around we will discuss more. APTTU.
If one continues to blame others for his way of existence it will be an infinite blame game with infinitely exhausting options, from which even his bones will not withstand, let alone his sanity.
When you permit me to pause and take it all in, including in the moments with those who surround me, and the majestic nature that envelops me. I can only be in prayer and there is this overwhelming emotion filling my eyes and heart with gratitude and surrender to you. I know not where I come from and where I will go, and I only know that I may never know, but in this moment I sense you, I tell my yearning desperate self that will do. All praise to my beloved unknown. May all sense you, around them and within them. May my loved ones too. All praise to the unknown
If I’ve forgotten to write of you and for you, and If I write or express anything for vanity and praises, I submit with clarity that I have forgotten you and lead a meaningless existence. Forgive me. I am grateful to you for you let me breathe so I can share what is realized, with conviction. Forgive me for any conditioning I am yet to break free of. I submit this to acknowledge of my weaknesses and my need to always steer my ship and work my sails towards you no matter the howling winds and high seas. I am nothing without you. Let me be with you. All praise to the unknown.
All may understand the finite existence of all life. Therefore, one must find peace in knowing that no finite being can embrace the infinite infinitely only finitely and thereby briefly. No one before you or after you may be able to either, for that is the setting of human existence. Only some perhaps finitely understood more than others of the infinite. One must find peace in knowing that in the endless path, pursuit of enlightenment, one’s finite life may come to pass. It is never about who found more or less, it is simply who chose the infinite path knowing that their finite existence too shall pass. It is like driving a car with limited gas on an infinite road, knowing fully well you will run out of gas soon before your destination but you knew that when you started. Enjoy the trip. APTTU.
The manipulation Wicked wield over the working class is taking away what is already theirs in return for future promises, and returning little of it to guarantee obedience.
In the simplest set of words the revelation from knowing the Unknown (god) is the wholesome awareness of the intricate details of all creation from a cell to the universe. It is beyond words only can be experienced, can never be proved or shared. Science can help observe, but the unknown reveals what is far more beautiful than the eye can see as it’s felt by the heart, and reveled silently by one’s mind in such infinite truth. Time has no meaning in this revelation, as there is no time, what is infinite may be a finest second or a lifetime. And as a result of this what is revealed the human burden one carries from birth through death and its fog is lifted. Truth becomes to emerge of all beginnings and ends. One is set free, they are beyond peace, joy and suffering, pain if even while present cannot alter the infinite state. Their soul reenters the eternal. All praise to the Unknown.All praise to the Unknown.All praise to the Unknown. All praise to the Unknown in tears. All praise to the Unknown in surrender.All praise to the Unknown in life and death.
This is as much a note to self as it is to the world. It appalls me that this simple yet profound truth is often forgotten. To those seekers, seekers of truth, the ultimate truths. Those who have already embarked or proclaim to have embarked on the journey. Let me be clear, the higher the pursuit the higher the temptation and challenges. ARE YOU ACTUALLY PREPARED FOR IT?. It is evident to me through several observations of others and self on many days, many pursue the Unknown (God) childishly, no I’m not talking about the innocence in their hearts. That must be pure like that of a child for the Unknown (God) sees us always like his child. But I’m talking about grown adults who wish to seek the Unknown (God), understand his glory but fail to understand he is seated in layers of revelation and understanding. HE is not a transactional being, but being in a journey like that of climbing a mountain. You have to ask how much and how far do you truly want to go. Many people’s unspoken answer is material and bodily comfort or wellbeing. For many this is why they pursue the Unknown (God) in the first place. Also, why the rich forget their moral duties because they completely forget god.
For others, its reading or understanding of others pursuit of the Unknown (God). Like reading a captivating novel and rejoicing in the thrill and excitement of it. This is the childish nature of many in their pursuit.
For instance, Hindus, read the Vedas or Bhagavath Gita or read the teachings of Paramananda and someone who sought vigorously, and they ignorantly think they have understood the Unknown (God). WRONG. Even worse, some subdue to present so called “swamis” and “gurus”, this is modern day outsourcing of this noble pursuit. Let me be brutally honest, Only the so-called swami’s and gurus’ pursuit if any is strengthened, not yours. In the supreme eyes you display laziness, lack of courage and perhaps desperation or fear nothing else.
Even in the great Upanishads it speaks of one’s own mind must pursue not just comes from a good teacher. In fact, it further clarifies as the following, The great all-knowing wise and enlightened Draviden Yama imparted to the Northern Prince Nachiketas the following “Knowledge of atman cannot be attained when it is taught by those who themselves lack in real understanding of it. And who therefore have no definite conviction of their own differ among themselves as to its nature and existence. Only he who has been able to perceive the self directly, through the unfoldment of his higher nature can proclaim what it actually is and his words alone carry weight.” And these so-called gurus and swami’s of today who claim or accept themselves to be that role are simply those who lack understanding. Now there were some in the past who understood who annihilated their ego and self for the pursuit of truth, I surmise remarkably they all came close to truth.
It is also same in other religions too, for instance in Christianity, In the Bible, Matthew chapter 21:12-13, “Jesus went into the temple of The Unknown (God), and cast out all them that sold and bought in the temple, and overthrew the tables of the moneychangers, and the seats of them that sold doves, and said unto them, It is written, Lord’s house shall be called the house of prayer; but ye have made it a den of thieves.” Relegating the thought of the Unknown (God) to Sundays is for sinners who want to continue sinning in my books. For all at minimum, you must start and end your day with the Unknown (God).
I truly wish to remind and impart this core message here, you have to reflect upon your pursuit of truth, light and the great Unknown (God) in the most honest and careful manner. And ask what is your pursuit and what for is your pursuit. It is a fallacy to think there is peace in the pursuit. It is an assumption without knowing your starting point. Your pursuit can start with purging your mind and body, it won’t be pretty, and there definitely won’t be peace in that process however long it takes. Perhaps peace may appear later but most certainly not anytime soon for those who are just starting. Perhaps you wish to mentally conquer death or the fear of death that drives most into daily survival, perhaps that’s what drove you to seek in the first place.
Ultimately only you can answer what is it you want? Are you willing to pursue the ultimate truth, the highest truth. If the answer is YES and trust me the answer will not be a yes on all days. Life for ordinary people desiring extraordinary things isn’t that easy. To even get to answering these very questions it may take years and several hardships to even answer the question honestly and with a level of sincere commitment.
Are you willing to pursue the highest. Know that the highest pursuit will come with the highest temptations and challenges. Why do you think there are monks, and monasteries, why do you think those men who some call gods never married, never ate, never wore achievements, never mingled in a society, never even lived in a society but ran away to nature. “They made painful decisions to take the easiest-path to get to the toughest journey” read that a few times! Now, ultimately if you have answered yes, part foolish part hopeful like me, know that you and I are already on the toughest-path. No! this is no challenge or penance; it is recognizing the needed ability and the readiness for the preparation of your heart. And one’s mind to seek the highest as one is to anticipate the highest temptations and challenges in this toughest THE journey, the ultimate pursuit, rather purpose of life. Only The Unknown (God) knows that for each of us. If your ego is in front of all this, then let me be clear you never started. All Praise to the Unknown.
Sin and suffering is born of man and his deeds, not the unknown (god). We have all heard of this but here’s the thing; Humans chose a degree of separation from god to have dominion on mother earth and the cosmos on his behalf. But humanity as a whole broke the covenant upon creation, in this new found independence. The unknown is like a primordial being for all visible and invisible that provides through the intent of creation. Like a toddler desiring to run away from loving parents unaware that there is no life giving power beyond them, humanity has taken its present path.
It’s up to a few to reinstate the covenant; restore humanity as a whole. However, there are some who indulge, and are accustomed to selfishness in the independence. Those who wish to worship the decaying flesh and pleasure, who have amassed resources in conniving ways for this very worship, be weary as they may abundantly create suffering as it is the shadow of such worship. But in yours or after yours, let there not be dismay but only discipline, caution and gratefulness.
As those who seek to restore the covenant were all inherently empowered to be custodians of this earth and all living beings, and meant to traverse the galaxies. Experience the many realms of creation in their lifetime or through the generations that come because of them. Through you and within you, as per your penance and inner alignment the unknown will always perform miracles, you must be finely attuned to see it all, for they are beautiful gestures of everyday grandeur.
If you have not witnessed such grandeur keep seeking peace from the unknown. Choose to be a river of hope not a just a selfish receptacle. As some of those miracles are meant for you, and some meant for others through you. You will know when you get there. That’s the path ahead. Shared as received, and perhaps this is the elaborate definition of hope and eternal virtue. All praise to the Unknown.
I surmise, to the unknown (god), inaction under the shadow of ignorance is acceptable while the same inaction under light of awareness is unacceptable. To my brothers and sisters, be aware of what you seek. For awareness is not meant to give you alone peace but for many through you. You are actually wishing to be a passage of light and peace not a place of storage for it. If your pursuit of awareness is ultimately selfish it will always be limited and void at the core. Iterations farewell than ignorance, pursue truth and light of and from self always. All praise to the unknown.
Some groups within our species have a strong predisposed need to feel superior. They go to immeasurable lengths to achieve that, hold on to that. Tragedy always accumulates. While others, simply want to stay close to God in their humble life on earth.
And by no means are they who restrain, who seek humility are choosing to be weak, in fact to the contrary, they are with infinite strength as the infinite unknown guides and speaks through them. They are servants of god not men, and seek no superiority over men, as they are servant leaders among us. When they are called to rise, trees will announce, mother earth stands with them. Stay blessed.
It used to always bother me inexplicably, and now more as a parent and watching other parents go through inordinate amount of medical hardships I can’t help but say this. This nation needs a solid course correct in healthcare. Ignoring, undermining population health toxins from so called processed “food”, drugs, digital media, and social determinants, while championing consequential for-profit medical products, and treatments is modern day cannibalism.
We need to think of health proactively from the grass roots, from when children are conceived, to when they are born, how they are raised, what they eat on a daily basis. Its not about making good choices – when most if not all choices are toxic for the young hearts, mind and bodies of average middle class families. We need to challenge our so called “representatives”, need to challenge the status quo Together! A parent has to stand united with other parents for all of their children. An adult needs to stand together with other adults to help each other out, that’s how you bring the change that is desperately needed in the prevention of chronic diseases, and illness across the nation, especially for the sake of innocent young children of all ethnicities and cultures.
The truth is theres more than one way to arrive at truth. For instance, through thorough objective reasoning, honest self-reflection, through a trusted teacher, and through learning ancient texts, and practicing ancient and time tested techniques. But what most won’t reveal easily is this- All truth in this world is connected, and governed by the ultimate truth of this universe. APTTU.
Pleasure and desire ride on emotion. Remove emotions, I mean all emotions, then pleasure will have no shelter in you, it will leave you alone. By remove it means reduce, control, master, dismiss. Not be void of emotion. Emotion is necessary to remain human. But directing and taming it is essential. For all emotions, unpleasant and the pleasant ones unsettle a mind. Whether you threw a rock into the pond or someone else did, the ripples are all the same. Seek peace in all moments and more than all emotions, seek God the Unknown, as he delivers peace in all moments. That’s the path. APTTU.
Good needs its leaders. Far too long the good, the kind, the caring people servants have watched in silence humanity disintegrate. To reclaim this earth, the good needs to rise again. Its time the good step up, men and women of god, all Gods, after all, all Gods do demand good out of us all. Gods need their knights to come forward. Good needs its servant Leaders. Every act of kindness, every act of service, act of sacrifice, every act of justice, every act of humanity, every act of True-Leadership is needed more than ever. Its time to step up, Good needs its leaders now!
You don’t know I’m writing this thinking about you. And you are too young to fully understand this. “You ask me for ordinary things, but they make me realize how extraordinary this life is” – love you, Dad.
Dads know how messed up it can get out there. Especially the current Dads, they have gone through a great recession, and a pandemic shutdown. No matter what, they will do their best to provide, care for their children. They will sacrifice their needs for their children, their new tribe. Not expecting anything in return, they, day after day pour it out for them. Dads start with a deficit, they know it, they honor motherhood something they can only conceptualize.
In the eyes of Dads; no matter how much their children fall short they are good kids, good sons, good daughters just figuring things out. Kids need the help they can get. So dads give it unconditionally without any expectation of reciprocation. A thanks will do but not expected nor guaranteed they are always okay with that. They teach them to be grateful, not to them, but in life towards people and to god. Why, because they are your budding family fighting against all the odds society throws at them. Something dads know all too well.
Now the same can be said for many people isn’t it? About all the other good dads and moms out there. There are still many, perhaps a lot of good people out there. This is an undeniable fact, there are good people figuring things out like you and me, for their family, for their children, up against odds just going through it all. We can’t ignore them; they are family too. They did nothing wrong. They were just born and life keeps hitting them hard is all. We must take care of them one way or another, cos that’s what dads do, cos that’s what Men do. Humanity can use a little more from us Dads, we may not have the reserve to pour it, but we know to get it done.
Improving Health is always an addition and subtraction formula. Never just addition or just subtraction. For example, you cannot take medications and expect everything to get better. Miracle meds beyond antibiotics are a rarity. The lifestyle, diet, exercise and other changes you are committing to equally matters if not more.
Whether in your favorite temple or at a church or in a monastery or at the mosque. Whether on a serene mountain cliff, or at sunrise by the river or by the teal shores. You always close your eyes to pray, even before your consciousness began, your soul knew the truth – To Look Within, while pausing the sensory. You intuitively look inward to seek god the unknown, who resides quietly within you, you gently calm down to seek inward. You open your eyes to give thanks to the world and the people before you, but you always close to seek, to pray, to meditate. Places of worship and peace are mere respites to remind you to seek within. Now you know. Humbly shared as received. I give Thanks. APTTU.
If i can’t control what i put in my mouth and what i put out of my mouth. I can’t control anything. Taming your tongue = taming your mind and all your senses. Seeking Forgiveness. APTTU.
This is why I strongly urge anyone to apply caution and skepticism when consuming online content. And strongly advise youngsters to stay away from it. While things may not be this lightheartedly evident or conclusive as the outcome of this dually laced image. There are several online content and posts that may pass for normal or news or fun that are extremely manipulative beyond words, images and videos. These are manipulative times. Don’t lose your inner conscience and compass. Reduce digital consumption, revert to enjoying nature. Be Well.
If god the unknown gave you only perfect things. You will not understand perfect nor imperfect. But if you are given imperfect things you will understand imperfect and perfect. And most importantly, you will realize how perfect the imperfect things are. APTTU.
Yesterday, I experienced a wonderful moment where I felt the presence guiding me and us. But soon after, it was judged, and cast aside as mere “excitement” or temperamental emotion. It helped me pause to seek forgiveness.
We have a narrow definition of God, partly due to our conforming upbringing that fails to permit one’s self to understand the unknown every day. By narrowing the existence of God, we narrow the existence of our mind.
I cannot help but assume that we must hold so highly of ourselves that we are selective in seeing the hand of god in our daily lives. You have relegated God to monumental things like parting the sea, moving mountains, raising the dead, defeating an army and so on, that you actually don’t have a clue what the phrase “God is everywhere” actually means anymore.
If you seek God, like if you really seek God, truly seek the wisdom of God in you. You cannot close the door, shut your eyes of him readily moving you, showing you, working in you. Rather be open to his presence in your every breadth. That is my hope that every other breadth I think of him. For I feel so ashamed of all the breadths without him yet he carried me through my ignorance.
You refuse to see God moving you in your daily life, yet you pray fervently and fast weekly, refrain from actions in fear of morality, sin and so on. This is sadly immature on our part. This is partly due to the learnings from religions and social norms.
The error many make is misunderstanding rituals and prayers and prisoning their thoughts about God to only those actions and moments, this is truly a shame as I have seen great minds fall to this limitation. Puja Room or sanctuary or wall of prayer is token of our senses to thank the unknown, it is not sacred, it is our sensory celebration and thanks to God the unknown. God does not enter you through your puja room. This is the failure of holy men from the past who in desperation painted these narratives. Your 1st puja room is your mind, then your heart, then your deeds and earth. These are your places of worship. Not rooms, walls, sanctuaries, buildings or people.
Rituals and Prayers are nothing but similar to couches, respites or run-ways for your mind to re-orient to god. They are not the sole medium to receive God. Your life, living, the way you treat others, the way you live everyday that’s how you receive God. Rituals were created to help you settle, ease into god when the days distract you. But many religions even Hinduism thanks to selfish pundits they raised their rituals higher than God that, god left them long time ago.
We hear the words god is everywhere but we don’t have a clue as to how to actually process and experience it. We see darkness created by men, and assume god doesn’t exist. Man tries very hard to push god away from places and through his deeds. We are born into a world of labeling. We label every minuet angle of change that we give unique names to the same thing. we relegate God to the big things and ignore his grace in the small things and in everything. God is on the other side of the door in your mind you actually refuse to open, in the name of labels and immature compartments of your mind.
In All of time and ancient texts, God spoke, he had conversations and interactions with the initiated. He also did miracles. Unlearn what was taught to you that he is seen only in miracles, and miracles alone. No. He is everywhere, the moment you shared with your daughter, the moment you smiled at your wife, the moment you wished your mom good health, the moment your sibling said thanks for your kindness, the moment you had a near miss, he was all there. The moment you forgot him, felt lost, felt abandoned he was still there. He is always there, he is everywhere. I seek forgiveness, I’m grateful to the unknown, the clarity removes the deepest fears. I hope I see him in you. Be well. APTTU.
Everything in life needs practice. Walking needs practice, sleeping needs practice, breathing needs practice. God needs practice. Not because God needs practice but You need practice of God. And practice God above all else. APTTU.
A obedient human’s challenge is this, a sacrifice, a prayer, a commitment, a temple, a statue, a song, a chant, a ceremony, a religion are all the stepping stones invented by man to guide, train their inner compass towards the unknown, and away from all the other distractions humans have invented from the occupation of mind. But they all become a distraction when they don’t know where to go and start going in circles demanding things and answers. Repetition is never the answer, but there repetition is necessary for growth.
There is circular movement in a spiral. But the path is a spiraling out journey not a circular one, though it feels like you are going in circles, your challenges will grow so will you. But if you keep falling into the monotony of repetition with no growth, it becomes your circular trap away from the unknown. You will practice sacrifice, prayer, commitment, a temple, a statue, a song, a chant, a ceremony, a religion with no avail. This becomes your trap, others may follow you or find you disciplined, even find you noble but that’s irrelevant like fools gold. Your covenant is to grow with the unknown not climb social determinants and tainted conformities. That is no true bearing in your inner growth. I have found rich religious fools I despise and poor wise people I embrace with affection.
The unknown (god) wants nothing from you, no sacrifices, no rituals, no prayers, no commitments, no temples, no statues, no songs, no chants, no ceremonies, no religious frameworks, not even a thanks. For nothing that is humanly possible can near the unknown. But simply be with the unknown, be in the unknown. Allow your heart and mind to be filled with the unknown, the trees have, the birds have, the skies have, mother earth has. Allow yourself to be filled with gratitude, grace and peace, there is guidance there, there will lie a path for you, you will not lead but be lead. I hope you experience it. You will discard you as much as you can, feel the blessing that was always waiting for you, for you doesn’t exist. And that will do. APTTU
The unknown (god) wants nothing from you, no sacrifices, no rituals, no prayers, no commitments, no temples, no statues, no songs, no chants, no ceremonies, no religious frameworks, not even a thanks. For nothing that is humanly possible can near the unknown. But simply be with the unknown, be in the unknown. Allow your heart and mind to be filled with the unknown, the trees have, the birds have, the skies have, mother earth has. Allow yourself to be filled with gratitude, grace and peace, there is guidance there, there will lie a path for you, you will not lead but be lead. I hope you experience it. You will discard you as much as you can, feel the blessing that was always waiting for you, for you doesn’t exist. And that will do. APTTU
Give me hate, I’m used to it all my life, that I can handle. But please don’t give me kindness, for it’s unbearable, I know not how to reciprocate. Heavy is my guilt to receive such grace, when so many innocent lives depart this earth without an ounce of it. Let my tears enter the ground before my body does. It’s clear to have come without knowing and to leave without knowing that settles the ego. But in between I hope to have tried with conviction to surrender to you unknown. I realize now, nothing I ask matters, nothing I give matters and eternally grateful for everything that was given. A fools peril is life and death its preordained destiny. This fool welcomes all as he welcomes you. APTTU.
where I should have demonstrated maturity I showed immaturity and where I should’ve been sincere, I was insincere. I could produce a thousand reasons to justify it over the years. But I know now is I am categorically wrong, and embarrassingly ignorant. I must strive to do two things. Seek forgiveness from those who I took for granted in those ignorant moments, and never repeat it to anyone, for it’s a reflection of me not them. All those things I pride myself for is mere shallowness for my temperament is foolish and seated on a fractured character. I submit this to hurt my ego or what’s left of it, and desperately attempting to course correct my path forward both ways. Grateful to the unknown for showing me the light and the way. APTTU.
I refrain from few dear ones not because our wavelengths are different, not because they are rude, but they have taken on their fair share of hardships and conformities of life, which has made many a shell around their minds. I withdraw from venturing too far with them as I sense a growing distance, an inner disconnect within them which can easily hurt others around them in their complacent oblivion. See the thing is we all must learn to unlearn, for the ways of the world has a habit of transforming our mind and soul into stone thats rigid and impenetrable. it keeps layering over and over us until we become immovable on its surface. Life when living becomes non-living, this a truth we often ignore for our definition of life is basic animation. It’s far more than that, but due to the majority rule we accept incomplete definition of living. But our ascension will quietly fade away from us no matter how much we fast or pray. While our rigidity may be resourceful for mundane repetitions of our lives, it will rob us of our continued understanding of the universe and the beautiful unknown. We have to be like a river, a river is never at the same place twice. We often talk about growth, change and adaptability. But those are baseless terms and hinge upon the value of unlearning that must occur in your life. Not forgetfulness but intentional discarding of beliefs and practices that was once cherished and celebrated. We must constantly unlearn the things that unknowingly weigh us down, those which do not pass the test of inner alignment anymore, that which perhaps continues to exists in us out of tradition, upbringing or even from the dogma of living. For instance, I laid down the weight of religion from me. The miraculous thing is it made me admire appreciate all the religions, including the one I left on the wayside. I left many aspects of my upbringing such as hierarchal systems, as it too carried despair and desperation on me. I find many dear ones stuck and lost in such conditions. Its not an easy road, I want to unlearn the narrow definition of happiness posed by material society, continuously working on it. Because language has taught us happiness and peace are different when it’s not as one is a pathway and the other a mere reflection. There is so much more to unlearn. what if I told you each language, culture comes to you with a set of invisible rules that you are raised to unknowingly be complaint to. I know not how to convey all this. But I wish to embark you on this important journey of unlearning to free your soul to see the true beauty, the real barriers beyond those that are spoken of. All i can say is Learn to unlearn, then unlearn to learn the unknown . APTTU. I write to rest my heart, for the unknowns perfection forgives my imperfections.
“Flowers will get admired, celebrated and get a lot of buzz, even give people fond memories. Whereas, the dark brown roots will always be ignored, expected to be in dirt, in the dark and dig deep. Thats human fallacy. But when the roots die, the tree falls” – Root. Buddha didn’t just sit under a tree but he sat on top of its roots as its grounded crown prince. Rain or Shine roots are the deep Divine.
I asked the unknown, how come you are with me when I’m at peace and not when I’m troubled. You are with me when I’m calm and not when i’m desperate. You are with me when I’m not in pain or when I’m suffering. You are never with me when I needed you the most…….unknown smilingly replied…..You were at peace because you surrendered to me, you were calm because you put me first above all else, You felt no pain because you were within me. Just be with me. 🙏APTTU. APTTU.
Heres the rub, Your maturity will want to reason with them. Will want to help them see, understand what they are omitting, ignoring. Will want them to know how they were utterly disrespectful. But their immaturity will never be ready for any of this. It’s also why they do what they do what they do. Any attempt to do so will backfire big-time. So you need to have even more maturity to let it all go. Best thing you can do is reduce your footprint in their life, share less, be less, do less. Walk away softly. For your sanity.
“It’s strange how a little digital screen takes me far away from myself, and the far away mountains and the blue sky bring me closer to my soul.“ – I said it
Frequently when I write my thoughts down, I pause to realize how thought is a luxury for so many. Any one who is free to think has an obligation to free many minds to think. This is an innate duty for without it his or her thoughts are useless and mere vanity. I beg to stand apart from such immaturity. selfless Deeds alone bring meaning to such thoughts. APTTU for this luxury of thought and committing my pledge of actions from my thoughts. APTTU.
Desire in anything including work or job can engulf you and while you maybe lost in it, reveling in your sense of duty. Such pride is also shallow. You are also lost in time and with the unknown. Only in the unknown can you be found, all else are traps for the mind. Yogis and Monks understood this ; permitted only the menial labors for the body to avail while the mind stays focused in the unknown. A day after writing this, the following random message appeared on my feed. Now I have to read the Baghvat Gita. APTTU.
How often you think of the unknown in your daily mundane moments, and through gratefulness for joy, and peace matters more than when you seek him in troubled or unsettling times. APTTU. We rush to ask, but slow to give. We rush to ask for everything but slow to give thanks for whats given. APTTU. Forgive me for I wander like a child learning to walk.
You answered, ever since I was a child observing our world I have been disturbed of how there was so much poverty, pain and suffering. Why do we hurt each other, kill each other and ignore each other. You were silent, or rather now I know I was not listening. “All that exists because we obstructed you from existing in our hearts and minds.” Even if nature was unexpectedly harsh, we as humans could have devised things to save innocent lives, but we didn’t. We were mislead by our own immaturity that spreads like wildfire. We being void of you simply carried on and complained, named you to blame you for our ignorance. I’m ashamed and weak. Forgive me and many who realize this with me through these words and their deeds. But I follow this with yet a another ignorant thought, can we fix things now, there is a growing doubt in my heart even in your presence I worry for the future of humanity. Perhaps it is my absence of adequate faith and conviction that seeds this. Forgive me, Nonetheless, I will do what is asked of me, and perhaps it seeds the rest to do whats asked of them to heal this world in your glory so we may speak of your presence in the entire universe. I know other forms wish to see this miracle. Like the hymns inside a cathedral, may the universe reverberate in your presence also through humanity. APTTU.
Why should i matter, why should my prayer be any more than someone else’s ? why should i and mine be saved and not someone else? my life is no more significant than any other human life on this planet, in-fact no more significant than any other life on the planet, yet i hear so many tragedies so many times hence i ask, the unknown why should i matter to you, even this thought screams ego to me, forgive me im a mortal. Why have you kept me here for, am i fulfilling your command laid for me, i ask not in fear but in surrender. With a growing doubt and the confusion of my ignorance while taking in all the profound human sadness as an alert observer on earth. can i help change course of this planet, will i be a grain in the soil for a seed you plant tomorrow ? Will me to do what i’m kept to do, allow me to understand the slightest hint if humanly possible, let me see, in you there is no suffering while i’m a fool a prisoner of this body and time. And while pain may consume me, spare me a space within all this of your awareness, to reside momentarily in my random existence. APTTU. APTTU.
The truth about spirituality that no one talks about is this. Its origin in a human being stems from self and selfishness, whether its grief or defeat its stems from an acute need for self identity. And it very much starts with the ‘I’ and gradually works its way to negate the very ‘I’ from self, to be left with selflessness. But this journey is not for all especially those seething in entitlement, as they will always prematurely stop and revert when their very journey questions the bedrock of ones self. I must be lost to see
In my mid 40s, I realize- friendship is when you fondly and deeply wish someone the very best life, health and success has to offer, no matter what plight you are in. And if you are that someone, you are quite lucky.
I always wondered why so many kind beautiful minds stop too prematurely in their quest and settle for so called “gurus”.
Gurus are the anxious minds fixture insert to fill a growing void. So called “Gurus” provide a hatch for these innocent troubled minds to close the void. With ashrams, persuasive speeches and rituals. Its a trance set forth that many get ignorantly trapped. It buys time away from their daily drama and hardships. But it actually takes away their time, for many-their lives are poured into the words of a single beings’ reflections, which is far from their own self’s awareness. It’s no different than taking pain killers giving momentary reprieve as you never were cured of the issue causing pain, and if you stop taking the pain returns. Such is the survival traps of such gurus and their programs. Its sort of like spiritual outsourcing. Think about it we outsource almost all of the things we use, these gurus are such outsourcing of a mind’s ultimate quest. Jiddu K, spoke volumes on this. He was a great human being. The very nature of this setup is a mistake against the unknown. A true teacher is like a good parent, who will serve you limitlessly, to take on life, and not consume you and become the focal point. Not sit on thrones, allow to be worshipped like deities, permit rituals on themselves as a spectacle. These are sickening to even imagine but happen. They will not permit these in any way, their ego will be under check and their acts of service will speak not their indulgent self vanity celebrations. All answers the mind seeks are everywhere, its in nature, its in good deeds, its in all people. When the student is ready the true and only teacher will appear. Be well. All Praise To The Unknown.
Life’s unexpected experiences, especially its hardest, ushers your heart to the biggest spiritual moments of existence. whether you choose to step in or not is up to you. And there is no right or wrong with either of your choice. Be well.
You may have noticed, True love is kind, wisdom and maturity is kind, authentic servant leadership is kind and nurturing. They are like the air you breathe, its always there you don’t often see it, you don’t even think of it much, but you depend on it, you enjoy it, you cannot live without it. Whereas hate, anger, revenge, temptations, consume you like an unstoppable fire, have a death grip on you, until it,not you, is momentarily satisfied. You are someone something else when it consumes you, obscures your clarity, rationale, your self is lost. Hence its so potent overpowering upon others and yourself, you become no different than a raging hammer or a wielding tool, that such presence in you destroys others and your self. It may even be praised by fools, that glory may sit helplessly in its lap. But its futile, they amount to nothing in things that truly matter. Narcissists leave wakes behind because of such a lasting trait masked as relentless selfish ambition. Only a critical self introspection, humility, and a willingness to seek truth, harmony, understanding can liberate one’s self. There will be withdrawals and failures in this journey. As many times as you are cast out of the temple or runaway, always head back, always return as the door is always open with the unknown. APTTU.
The base purpose of life is to experience humaness, and grow in the understanding of its characteristics. Not material consumerism, which is often the way to fill an inner void.
This human journey is never a selective process as we desire it to be. However, we have choice on our reactions, and the attenuation over our next few responses after that and so on.
Death is Return. – understanding this multidimensional meaning and then gaining acceptance of it is one of the most difficult, emotional and complex thought a human can experience in their lifetime. Its counterintuitive a runaway knowledge. Because its the deliverance of the finite from the infinite. Its the knowledge of closure, departure from thats so dearly loved and attended to. This awareness is a last principle, not a first, implying its an artifact of a conscious journey. This truth mustn’t give joy nor sorrow, but profound peace in knowing of the cycle of life, and the strip down to the nameless soul. What happens, thats later. One does not arrive to this thoughtfully alone but experientially, religion can be a bandaid logic here, for the pious it can even help heal but with misinterpretations of afterlife. Death is return, birth in every sense is Departure (later). Most find it easier to live to ignore, deny, refute and acutely suffer in the absence of this understanding. I’m no exception but…
Yes, its very possible for someone seeking the spiritual unknown to lose their path in the very journey, and go astray. I understand this firsthand. I cannot begin to describe my trials in this path. We must realize that its not a whenever you can journey, perhaps thats beginner level. The path is not an open wide road with exits and entrances, but rather it is like walking on tight rope above a canyon while being blindfolded. Oh yes and it can be done, as few before us have proven it to the world. But this can be initially absolutely terrifying, yet the most fulfilling path -this first and foremost requires a daily discipline and focus. The key operand here is “daily” which for those relentless eventually becomes every moment of their being. And by discipline I don’t mean a self destructive; imposing discipline, but an astute focus with sensory restraint and a proactive gentle core mind. Trust me when I say this, when your deeds are pure and you are giving your best shot given all you are faced with, you will be Led. Its very possible, and let not your illiteracy of vedas or all scriptures discourage you, that deficiency is the sin of those who came before us and their selfish failures not ours, at least not yet. you are enough and there is enough of the unknown already in you. you simply have to ‘selflessly’ (diff meaning) harness it and leverage your living to maintain it. You may also wonder don’t many roads lead to this? yes indeed, but all the paths eventually merge like a tree with one trunk and many branches and many roots to one tree. There is an undeniable convergence in this universe, the big bang is an evident illustration of this fact, but saving more on this for later. APTTU. ACTTU.
picture:afreepic. Acknowledging poverty. thought is a luxury many dont have. ACTTU
Why many cannot come to grips with this and those few who do….well. Regarding faith, you must understand that there cannot be asks, queries and prayers in faith, as it is the complete unquestionable surrender of one’s self. And the truth is; upon that surrender outcomes and experiences become irrelevant. Yes, your suffering if there is one, will become irrelevant. This is also where a religion’s ceiling lies – when it doesn’t lend itself to help mankind surrender in faith. It is also the deepest fallacy of any religion because mankind has instrumentalized it into a transactional concept. we get into this cycle of – I pray for safety, I pray for my family’s wellbeing, I pray for a good career, etc, which the unknown is definitely not about. You See its like this – When the drop enters the ocean whether peacefully or violently once its in, “it” no longer exists, because its the ocean. what come of it or its state is an irrelevant question and discussion, that thought is a selfish deplorable and futile pursuit of self indulgence. But know this -the drop is in the ocean, the drop is now the ocean and the ocean is the drop. All Praise to the UNKNOWN.
Define your True North and Purpose. Then go Toil, every step in your pathway may not glisten, nor be without sweat and blood but toil anyway, for it all adds up and in the end if there is one. But there will be one, your efforts may bear fruits some sweet or perhaps all tart. But today you toil anyway. APTTU.
What is given is soon taken, and I keep nothing, then who really am I but only a vessel. I am just a colorful veneer, a beautiful painting on something I don’t own or know. – K.G.
I see a stark yet subtle difference between Western (excluding Indigenous) and Eastern paths to self awareness,wisdom and enlightenment alike. One nurtures the reinforcement of ego, while the other simply eliminates it. This makes one path harder and the other more preferred. It’s important to note in the ultimate path, inevitably, there is no self.
I Lost my dad unexpectedly in 2018. When everyone was celebrating for the upcoming year and Christmas break. I was taking my dad’s ashes to the sea. And speaking of father’s day, truth is I never celebrated father’s day etc, no not because I didn’t love my dad or anything like that. Its just we, well I didn’t do these annual namesake events in my life, grew up in that type of culture, setting, alien to such “western” “modern” events. As a guy to be honest, I never did much for birthdays either, it felt out of place, a bit odd for guys like me. Being Someone who grew up in tougher societies, I have attended a poor kids birthday “party” and a rich kids birthday event. Neither felt right for different and perhaps obvious reasons. Grew up realizing and affirming that I don’t express love like that, may be many are in the same boat.
I always appreciate(d), love(d) and grateful for every person, loved one in my life, STILL DO, period. But I never let them know that as much as I could have. Old school way of living maybe, raised like that, dad was like that too. We may ensure we talk on occasions, but we don’t do say things like “happy birthday” or happy whatever day you know, we are not the celebratory or expressive types. Like sometimes I cringe when I see people expressing how much they love their spouse or mom or dad in fb which in my mind should be a private expression to each other, why should everybody linked to you must know ? I often start wondering what’s the angle there. Like the other day I saw a gal public post to her husband, “happy 10th anniversary love…blah” all I can think of is what did you do, what level of forgiveness or coverup or a gift need is this all amounting to. Now that said, I get sometimes we want to express how indebted or grateful we are to folks in our lives, but I think there is a thick line between these things and how to go about those, but I just find things have gotten pretty flaky. Growing up in an Irish school I was always taught deeds not words, lips tight shut but blood sweat and tears for em!
We men we never talked emotions with each other. We love(d) our daughters, we abundantly expressed our love always to them. But not much were expressed between us, and truth is I don’t have regrets. We shared a way of life, it was set, our ways were same. Though unspoken we knew our love, admiration for each other. Birthday or fathers day or some new day they come up with. We knew each day we were there for each other, we were doing what we can to keep it tight and keep it right every day and anyday. Our love and admiration didn’t just peak or become loud and proud on one called out marketing day, where we come running to express, publicly post how we celebrate our relationship. We quietly kept at it everyday till death, period. That’s how some men will always do it. I don’t see that going away. Heck in fact I prefer it that way and hope it stays that way. Men will be men. I miss him today like any other day and I know tomorrow will be the same.
But here is the bigger rub for me, the crappy thing about days like “father’s day” and “mother’s day” is it forgets those who are hurting the most. Social media, forums, society at large in this digital age forgets the hurt in those who are enduring more on such trumpet wet days. What about those who lost their dad. what about those who never had their dad most of their life. What about those who never knew their dad. I lately find most of such call out days are marketing gimmicks kept on for sales and of course many naïve fall for the tricks and tradition continues. One side note: Let me tell you one thing death brings to the table almost always, it is the simple profound question “Why”. Losing or not having a loved one is tough; this is real pain in your heart and in your eyes. Its destructive from the inside. In all such days, we must recognize this out there. I get it.
Now this is not some sort of cancel culture BS. I want to say this, to those who miss, grieve for that one person the world seems to celebrate over on a day, celebrate the love you still have left, plant a new tree in that deep shade of solitude. Find peace in a new beginning, a new love, another love, another relation, a friend, or a child to pour some unconditional love. I am a father now, this day now has a new beginning, a new meaning for me to hold on, as my heart slowly painfully learns to let go of the old meaning. But know that you are not alone in your pain, know you are understood, your longing is accepted perhaps elsewhere, things may and will lead to a new road, a new beginning. Ignore those who don’t understand and hope you don’t be one who doesn’t understand all this either. Be kind, be well, do say when it needs to be said, and stay silent if it still expresses infinitely. Celebrate what you can with this world. Gentle is love, being human takes love and sacrifice. Happy Father’s day to all.
Many great leaders both from the past and the present have illustrated this core message in many ways and many words. To me, the simple point of life, and, living is this; Life is plural, we are a fabric made of all the relationships we have and are supported by the relationships we carry forth. Love, kindness and embracing, leading with vulnerability are important constituents of relationships, to sum things up –
I see people from well to do places or countries be astonished or be appalled by cultures or societies in struggling places and countries.
Well, I verily say to you, when reality constantly fails and hurts one in ways more than what you can comprehend, what are they expected to embrace and revere but myths and superstitions. Give them that they will bleed more passively.
As a species we have evolved, yet not evolved enough to care for our own having slightly different shades.
Hey……at least in death give him peace and to those who deeply grieve some solace; to send him off the very last time. But how can you …..oh you are as… dead as the rest of you wondering with shredding souls and withering bones.
Recently lost a loved one to ignorance, cultural dogma, overcrowding, derivative pollution, poor infrastructure and absolute folly. I couldn’t nor didn’t do thing to prevent it. Now what and why does any of my accomplishments matter?
I am writing this thinking of my bud, who seems to have his intrepid journey of life like the rest of us; entering the 40s. Well…I think most of our 20s we men are mostly searching, searching for stuff and people to do stuff with, and then in our 30s, we are searching for ourselves and solidifying ones’ self as a person clear with their likes and dislikes, and such, and of course wishing we didn’t waste time in our 20s! But its really in the 40s we get introduced to peace, peace with mortality so to speak, importantly peace with ourselves and this world in many ways I think, and realize our most important contribution: “Relevance”. So, I leave you with is my dear friend you are more relevant now than ever, you are relevant in your daughters life as she cautiously enters into her teens like all our daughters do, you are relevant to your spouse and co-workers as they look to you with trust and dependability. And most important of all, you are relevant to you to be at peace with yourself and win the world or the likes of it for just being you. Take care.
To sum up a powerful virtue of humanity, if we could let complete strangers know that there is still goodness and kindness in this world through our deeds and way of life, it will rest well on the sands of time.
Pic by Daisy OBryan
Some of us are like ‘light bulbs’ that are meant for a Light House, not meant to shine bright on corporate floors.
Bulbs are often fragile, some are even inefficient, have a short life and burn out, but have a full and singular purpose; to guide many from darkness and perils that awaits them.
I know many including me avoid parts of our past, not for the sins per se but for the glorious dreams we once had, we once shared with one another, and sadly those dreams no longer have a place to stay in us. And we fear that others who we had shared those with may bring it up, that we avoid the people altogether who were once our best of friends.
The reality now has robbed us of those cherished dreams and it saddens us enough that we choose to bury the past and avoid the people who we shared it with. And that’s truly a shame. I think I can speak for me that I have lacked the maturity then so to speak, and I have lacked the maturity enough now to see it all through again with the lens of the present.
We unconsciously fear that letting them in again into our lives would be like letting those beautiful dreams remind us of our failures that we chose to ignore both, and that’s a shame.
Failures are life as much as successes, they are simply experience of same value, we can learn we can be hurt, we don’t have to rise or dip in any way. We just have to accept the present and the past for it was wholly. We search for new dreams and memories to cherish, yet we don’t know what to do with those that were already given to us beautifully original.
As a man, a son, and a father now, and as someone who pays attention, with great degree of certainty I can say that Motherhood is the greatest, selfless and hardest human endeavor I have witnessed in my life.
And in our age, a working mother is simply beyond incredible. I have personally been fortunate to see both my mother and my wife raise their children. Mothers do the impossible with utmost heart and dedication.
And in societies and in all cultures. Gender equality is a must and the right on this earth. Man prides in conquering and acquiring. The fruits of his labor are worthless next to hers. If any man stands for inequality and unjust acts upon women, they deserve only to crawl back as a sperm into their fathers loins. None of us would be here if not for our mothers.
In spite of ones personal, and full understanding of the worlds emotional experiences and sufferings, a person must aim to be a contagious, genuine source of happiness, kindness and peace. This is the greatest maturity of all in a person. Only this maturity can heal the future for generations to come.
A couple of my loved ones always tell me, you should trust in god, or you should trust in god more, or place your trust in god. Well, I call it BS. Here is my theory. God or No God. I believe we have to do our best, exhaust all measures within our reach for something we are dead focused on achieving. Because after putting that level of effort in, you will probably accept your fate or the result readily. You did everything you can, nothing else is left to do, then god or no god, you are prepared to accept the result. Personally, I find myself accepting my failures better when that’s the case, in fact I don’t even feel god has let me down in those cases, as I can come to the resolve that my best was not good enough and I have discovered that to be the case in few circumstances in real life. Or back to the drawing board or try differently etc. So with all that, when it comes to important or passionate things if you are giving all you got, why the ef do you need to trust in god? is it the think positive scheme? I find that with many, this whole “trust in god” syndrome increases laziness, i.e. do half the $###, and trust in god! Go half the way, do sort of what you can and trust in god, where is the maniacal hard-work that should precede success, if you don’t know your fullest effort that may kill you. This trust in god prematurely as in most cases, is like a glass ceiling we tend to thrust on ourselves to atone laziness and inadequacies lacking a reality scale or calibration. For those who believe in god, here is a proposal, do your dam best, give it all you got, then lay it to god to grant things if you will. And when doing it, do it like he/she doesn’t exist, and you are all you got. Go give it everything and keep the faith. I am sure God will understand !
Nearing the midlife zone, I can speak with a degree of certainty, that your body will betray you, your mind will also start to betray you. The only thing that will stick with you are your habits. Get that sht in order!
Truth is each life including mine that’s doing alright was, is nurtured by a handful of loved ones and a million or so total strangers from the past and the present. We often fail to realize how many total strangers just by virtue of their convictions, ways and fears have helped us be us, invariably touched or shaped our life’s’ many moments. Just #being grateful for kind acts from total strangers
When one starts accepting their condition or inability to help the most precious people in their lives, their indifference to help any at all increases.
It leaves an yearning that’s comforted only by the vices of materialism. More drastic than that is the growing belief in them that their service is of no use to anyone else.
With the assumption of a good heart, the only anecdote to this is to rely on defining self first, where placed to act next. When self is clear with discipline and character no matter the place or the surrounding people one carries forth with servitude.
(written spontaneously and published without adequate proofing)
I have always wondered what I must share with my daughters as to what my takeaway is or what my overall view of the world as of today is, i.e. my complete understanding of it over time to date summarized. And of course, provide this in a simple message, or at least that’s the idea. I am not too smart to sum it up in a sentence / maybe I will try to focus a bit on word count and choice another day. I realize that this summary will be influenced both by my current view of the world which could be shaped by my near and distant past, nonetheless I want to try. And at least it aligns with my desire to live each as day as though it was my last, so I live it in full. So here goes…
First, each of our journey is ours and ours alone, we may be impressed by other lives, and choose aspects or perhaps ways to adhere to others, but never forget it’s your choice or your choices that shape you. Own it and Drive it.
Second, you may hate the analogy here but, though we are not primitive beings in jungles, the world for most part is still untamed in most ways and so are most of people’s hearts and minds, from all walks of life. Life in much ways is like as though one traverses through an unpaved winding trail in a dense forest, first you need to plan the basics and be prepared for the basic elements of risk and safety. Yet it’s the best adventure you are bound to have, yes there are thorns and poisonous reptiles that could be lurking anywhere but there are also the most beautiful and visually vibrant song birds that sing melodies to the soul that you wouldn’t want to miss. As you go through your trail, you will come across dwellers who have stopped or made home somewhere in the forest. They will speak to you only from where they are and it may be what you don’t know yet, but remember they are no different than you and its irrelevant if they were there before you or behind you. It’s still only your journey. Enjoy the sunshine through the tall trees and find the safest tree to shelter from the storms.
Third, I actually heard this on discovery channel survivor, the bare feet guy said it and it aligns with the theme I am working off of above, essentially the wisdom is this “the more you know the less you need” Every path you take in your journey and yes there will be many cross roads or cross trails in our case, the more informed you are the better your chance of success or survival in the trail you choose to take. And one thing and perhaps the most important aspect is this – learn about the players or the animals you may encounter beforehand. And the more you know, the less you will need to empower yourself. And trust me the trail is arduous and long, the less you will have to carry emotionally, mentally and physically the better. And if you can be ready for the situation you face, the better you will be in facing that situation.
Some before have coined the phrase “prepare for the worst and hope for the best”. In all honesty this strategy fails you utterly in practice as I have tried it, once you start preparing for the worst trust me there is no stopping until your mental preparedness exceeds or meets death of everything and everyone in every order and ways imaginable what good is that, and how in the world is it to give you any hope at all. It doesn’t work. Hope is one of the most important elements of life and survival.
Lastly, there is an inner awareness you have to carry with you all the time in your trail, it may translate as many virtues in you and it is the understanding of self and understanding of others situations or circumstances. Because to great extent we are creatures of our circumstances and those who possess great will and grit, to them circumstances become creatures of their doing. This awareness will lend to forgiveness, empathy, sympathy (cant tell the diff between em… , sym… sometimes gets all meshed inside anyways) and prevention of unsafe situations. But I will leave it up to you to determine whether you want self-first or selflessness first, and I can tell you couple of things on that front as well – the universal default including “gravity” is self-first and I have placed each of the two first in different circumstances in my life , both choices are great and both choices suck one way or the other. The only relief is in knowing this truth in most circumstances. But don’t ever get tired of selflessness and give up on it completely, because the world will test you in in and if you stop being selfless completely then your humanity is lost. And at the same time, don’t lose your life without your choice either by being all super selfless. You are not god incarnate. Pain and suffering is real in this life, don’t wish it upon yourself and on others unless to defend your own.
Anyway, the point about the inner awareness is simply this as you adventure through your trail you will encounter a variety of creatures that dwell in various settings, some pleasing and some not so much. The realization is this; those that you encounter in your trail they are very much creatures of their circumstances, they are for the most part surviving and have learned the ways presented to them to continue to survive in their circumstances. It’s often survival that’s making them do what they do often, whether it’s the reptile or the singing colorful bird we talked about, they are doing what they do for a reason to be alive which they have found to work or have gotten programmed to doing. Rest is all just details. In the end, never fail to look at the blue sky or the stars at night they never lie and always smile. Dad loves you : )
Having grandeur thoughts and thinking about the big picture or asking the big questions of life are alone not sufficient and may be even amount to utter insignificance and nothingness, take up space and time like everything else in it.
Actions from these matter, perverseness in spite of these also matter, spreading consciousness matters.
I have come to sadly reject “almost all” of humans notions of god, faith and such concepts embedded in religion, primarily due to 2 reasons:
1. I don’t like the egotistical, self-colored, lopsided tenets driven to preserve self and ‘destroy rest’-‘dont care of rest’- ‘rest of you are wrong’ mindset, but I do enjoy some beautiful souls melodies sung to mine from within these worlds.
2. Whatever it is i want to figure things out myself, like everything that’s important and profound in life’s experiences. I will seek counsel in everything that mankind womankind et all have realized, established on this earth as righteous. I will do all this while not being egotistical in this pursuit as I don’t want to replicate a simpletons religious mindset.
But no matter where I stand with this topic, Whether i am upbeat or beaten down when I see the morning blue sky with the sun shining high, or the snow covered hills as far as my eye can see or when i feel a gentle breeze wrapping me tightly, I cannot help but ask ‘are you listening ?’……
……are you listening to my hearts cry for truth, are you listening to my praise of you, are you listening to my foolish search….are you listening to it all ?
You two made me truly understand love, in how to give it unconditionally and innocently, and how big an arrogant fool I am in life.
to my kids,
You both are just 5, but daddy is very grateful for all you have taught me about myself. You have humbled me with your innocent love and forgiveness. I am very sorry if I have already let you down, I am sorry when I yelled to protect, when I got irrational to keep you safe. I am so sorry when I have lost my temper when you didn’t understand the world and its ways, oh you were just 3 my angels, I am sorry when you simply wanted more love with your tears I am sorry I responded with impatience and anger. My dear, I have often been lost in the wasteful ways of this world and have ignored my most precious gifts and moments, the simple joy of a smile and laughter with you is more precious than all I have gained. You made me realize how big a fool I am. I hope this fool remembers always how big a fool he is and am reminded of my love for you and your happiness, and your grace towards this simple dad. I love you, you have made me responsible and hopeful of this world, you have given me grander reasons to solve some of the problems out there.
Sadly, people who have experienced the greatest joy and greatest suffering in this and in their world know all the boundaries of the human consciousness. Rest are merely existing.
Dear all social-, non-profit-, voluntary-, charity- workers all over the world – I may have a wallet with a few dollars to share, but you have the heart and strength. I want to believe in god to wish and pray good health and strength for you. My feet trembles in seeing the burden you carry every day. You have the heart, I am nothing compared to your undeterred will.
I have gotten lost but I am finding my way. I have sinned but I am seeking salvation. I have rejoiced in comfort and materials but now I am willing to let go. I have been selfish but now I want to be no more.
I have forgotten, but now I remember. I have forgotten but now I earn to see. I have gotten lost but now I want to return, I have wasted but now I want to save it. I have rotten but now I want to live. I have laughed selfishly but now I want to cry together. I have left but now I want to return. I have slept but now I want to be awake.
Society has a way to let you discover your fears and weakness well before your strengths, that you often get stuck in the beginning and so goes your entire story. Overcome, cross, because most don’t. And they are the building blocks of this society, what are you ? who are you ? if you are afraid to ask, you are one of them for starters.
I was distraught that I achieved nothing [per my inner scorecard] in 2016, the weight didn’t come off, the products didn’t fly off the shelf. Life coasted when viewed from most angles in 2016. But I felt an immense mental perspective and a profound confusion cleared. Nothing physically changed, but I was different, how I viewed and my ability to collect myself in a situation had improved at least I think it has. There were definitely many fumbles, temper fits, frustrations, in fact more for things happening around the world, and regarding the society I lived in than in the previous years. Previously, I had really hoped; I would become thick skinned or gradually ignorant about world affairs in 2016, but instead I got more sensitive, felt more guilty or responsible, felt more helpless, felt more frustrated, yet felt more hopeful when I saw good deeds by strangers, faith in humanity was restored and crushed repeatedly that year. Sometimes on the same issue. I was torn and put back together with deeper hope and understanding of life, it was by no stretch easier. I distanced myself, I hid, I became a loner to buy time to understand the entire thing that was laid on me, I needed time to process, because it was filled with tears for those who are out there with no hope or nothing to sustain a breadth or a drop to drink. This weight crushed me and the little hope I had on humanity. But humanity prevails.
So what changed, so why this new perspective, why this overall vulnerability. Why this sudden burden on my unworthy shoulders.
I think I finally listened, I listened to the world when on my knees, by choice, by the path i haven been ushered over all these years. I heard it loud and clear. Now the only question is, what am I going to do ?
At the rate things are forced to divide here, I think all colored people should start living in the shadows of tyranny and inequality.
Why rise-up when your children may be hurt, why stand when the innocent and young may be hurt forever. All we can do is do our best, do right by all people, do right by our higher ground that’s so difficult to take, to protect our innocent children. Give them a chance to standup tomorrow as our today is over in pain, hopelessness and suffering.
Even the good and virtuous are silent, the good are stuck in inaction and some are truly ignorant, the weak are trampled, the tired are done, we live in the shadows of tyranny to feed and protect the innocent, for we have seen the cruelty of this world and don’t wish it on anyone, especially not our innocent children. All we want is to give them and their generation a fighting chance at equality and success of their will.
This state of affairs is a real loss for a great nation that once inspired millions around the world for what she stood for, including this heartbroken and sickened. My failures are more important to me today than ever before.
It’s amazing how people give you advise like they know what they are talking about on the most important things? In mean cmon who really who knows who ?
I am not talking about flying a 747 or instructions for opening the parachute mid air or operating your scuba gear. No, I am talking about things like – what will make you happy, what’s it gonna take from you, is money important or a simple content life important? Is a 6digit salary as a small cog in a big company better or as the head of a small shop making small 5digit salary? Is a big house to show off important or a good spouse who understands you important? A family to live with and do road trips or the money to book a flight to travel around the world with a backpack important ? Like who can be the counselor or judge of these things in life but you, so why the hell do people ask others or think that they can answer that for others ??Shouldn’t the answer always be “I don’t know, do what makes you happy, think is right and keeps you happy after you done it ” ???
Have you ever written something, where you meant one thing and it reads totally the opposite after writing it. And I am not just talking about typos or errors where you miss words like “not” or “can” instead of “can’t”. Have you ruined good moments or even soured good relationships? I continue to do that, it frustrates me and I am disappointed with myself for it. It’s just the world is vast and how each of us have meticulously woven our communication pattern through our life is so amazing and each so unique that it’s difficult for us to align on the meaning of sentences made up of even simple words. Also some of us have the added misfortune of thinking more inside head and communicating one fourth of that. And when you send this variability through the one dimensional platform of emails, texts, or tweets, oh man! Talk about screwing things up, it’s inevitable.
I have invariably upset, hurt or offended everyone I have liked and have communicated frequently with.
I am now forced to take on neutrality in my words and removal of all true response or engagement in many of my emails in fear of misunderstandings. There comes my solitude back this time for different reasons. It amuses me that I once had a “long-distance” penpal from Germany and she sent me half a german coin pendant before they went EU, oh how young and a brave communicator must I have been back then.
In the end, I think one must know you enough 3 dimensionally before you venture onto 1 dimensional communications for true relationships to stay true I think, so they can gage what you mean in your email not just by what they read but also of the memories of you and having some knowledge of your ways, choices, styles, stupidity or sincerity in your expression and forms. Even then nothing is guaranteed, as they may be at a conflicting mindset because of what they are enduring or currently going through in their journey, so what is the safe passage here you ask, well I think the safe passage is simply applying the motto of raising others before self and refraining from judgment and perhaps sad to say also refraining from your expression or opinion of the matter at hand.
Simply appreciate your opportunity to have the touch point with them, that connection and whether you type or talk pay attention, respect and follow the simple rule of others before self or them before you, it should mitigate, reduce the variability of communication gaps among people. As we all know that’s a tough ask and it can even rob the authenticity of that moment for both parties. But I think wisdom should guide the choice or sacrifice between saying what one thinks versus what one desires to hear.
A death in a friends family, made me sad of course. But it was then I realized something about truth.
Truth often can be said with least number of words and perhaps even with long pauses of silence. Truth can be said without words sometimes too. Truth is simple yet powerful.
Death is a complicated, yet basic and profound fact of life, yet I know many of us haven’t comprehended it and some of us are forced to comprehend it due to someone special leaving us.
People generally have a prepared a mental agreement to face death, a death at very old age is accepted, a good death is almost cheered at the old age, a sudden death at an old age is even accepted.
But all other death is scary and hits our depths and gathers all our fears and inequities.
Truth is I am scared of my loved ones death than my own in that context, shakes me to the point of sudden immense grief and immovability. I can never be prepared, how can one be when they can love another. I am confused of my own end of consciousness, too hard to believe such a day will come. I sometimes want a warriors mind, like those in battle. Fate is decided only actions are left, and no one cares including the warrior. The strength and will is so powerful that death is just another action, perhaps the last act. Only actions are counted, remembered.
It suddenly feels like how the Jews in Europe, and Japanese in the US felt back then, when they got hauled out in bunches to their camps; they were clueless, broken, anxious and scared for their loved ones. Hell, this is coming from a legal resident here!
Decent amount of money to buy convenience but suffering the loss of identity, lack of freedom to choose how your day should be, lack of freedom to pursue what you believe in the most. Doing work that others and or no one cares for if it gets done ?, Good money to go on vacations anywhere once a year for just a week or so, as anything longer is tough to pull off financially, and your “management” expects your tasks be completed and your body be at a desk – a 6′ X 8′ cubicle coffin?
What is good life – where you have the money you want, but are a slave to stupidity ? is that a good life ?
Good life is finding happiness in the simplest of things with people you love, enjoy and having the freedom to pour your passion into the work you chose to fill the time with, where each day no matter success or failure, money or no money, you did your best enjoyed the humility, while doing things because you loved it and its your purpose. And you have ‘a family’ to enjoy it with, that’s life and the time that you can call your very own, that’s a good life by all standards. simple as that.
In often narcissistic corporate world, old fashioned values are slowly fading, and today’s technology isn’t helping the cause either. But I often pause and ask what should be my legacy while I am at it, not in end, but now?
Am I leaving a wake of zombies behind me or am I raising leaders and serving many, so when I am gone, once in a while they see a document come through or an item with my name on it and wonder with a smile what the heck am I up to now? Answer seems obvious eh…wake of zombies, …..kidding.
My 5 yr old S cutely came to me the other evening, saw me clicking through a lengthy word document procedure revision, a typical task from my day job. She stood next to me for a few seconds, watched me and then said these simple words.
To me, it was beyond simple, it was the most profound stuff I needed to hear at the cross-roads I was at. The words to me summed up the rut I am in.
If you are a guy and you for a moment thought your love for your wife or your mom was a big deal in your life! Wait till you hear a gentle and sincere “i love you dad” from your 5 yr old daughter.
There is nothing more powerful than that to pour into you, period…..The immense weight & the depth of the joy in hearing that, & the responsibility that comes with it will simply overwhelm you. Superman has got nothing on you : )
…wish they never grow old, truth is when they do and they will, they are still that little angel to die for.
I think God is often ones mode of instant delegation of ones responsibility in society. For if they instead sat and mulled with the issues longer, they probably will breakdown, lose their mind, won’t bear the burden and pain.
But Few, yes few sat with things longer and changed the world. Perhaps God delegated her own to these few.
The sad truth of nature and wisdom alike is they desire to reproduce, so do temptations and all vices. The striking parallel to such is the internet, self and selfishness are one. Self always permeates to create self. There are many ways this is described in society.
If you strip away the body and mind, consciousness is meant to bask and be wowed in the grandness of this universe. Hence consciousness creates consciousness. Life happens.
Human beings lately like galaxies, are being pulled away from each other -faster and outward into oblivion. Might be the biggest setback of technology on civilization, its supposed to bring us closer – alas it has filled between us with stuff we cant surpass to reach one another with pure hearts and minds.
What is amazing is, almost everyone I have had the chance to spend some time with in life, of all ages and races have always taught me something about myself, help me discover who I am and who I am not, and on occasions also discovered something about themselves. I am grateful.
Its the weight of the world and all the helpless things many perilously ensue that I can’t affect, that which makes me truly sad and profoundly silent.
After which, – I merely survive in my mundane selfishness.
The world all over has devised, devices ingenious and successful ways to keep one’s mind occupied every second. Full of clutter and tasks and temptations. It’s a masterpiece of the brain towards self-preservation, as in silence from all this it suffers a grave calmness. In silence it truly asks, searches. It breaks down and reforms to a far superior yet perilous level of consciousness.
Saying “an idle brain is a devils workshop” is one of the biggest concealment it taught itself and the world. This is one is a special one, as on surface its very true, within a followed or required structure idleness can be detrimental. But with purity of mind or after a sincere long search for it and when idleness lends to calmness and clarity. Mind wanders into uncharted territory; less spoken of, superior and yet troubled grounds.
One’s goal is provide certainty at all times to fellow beings, its respected by society in all times too, the righteous the better. But right or wrong often doesn’t matter. But certainty always matters
Iterations create uncertainty, generally disliked by all.
Human condition requires an explanation; all who are sane or conscious of themselves, consciously or unconsciously seek an explanation, an explanation for everything. And all those find comfort in at least one of many prevailing explanations; religion among other things is just an artifact of this eternal condition.
What if all this means nothing, What if all this is just nothing, what is ‘this’ you ask – i.e everything.
The only point where that simple and ‘empty-theory’ breaks down is at the grandness of the universe, and only there. Now human consciousness; I can argue, sort of even accept (lately), that it’s all nothing, i.e. meaningless. Earth, life, living – all nothing, pointless, collectively slow, often fumbles, stupid w/flashes of usefulness, that’s it and still nothing . And No different to single cell organisms (Yes I just compared you, us, we to microbials).
But the universe,…… just mentally picture the vastness of galaxies and distances….And now ask: What, What ,Why, How and For What ? That’s where I get stuck, I don’t at all understand and humanly find it impossible with all my humility and senses, refuse to accept that its nothing too, perhaps because i don’t understand it. As a species we don’t or haven’t yet i think, when you infuse the understanding and seriousness of one’s own mortality with this zero understanding of the universe. I am at a loss of everything.
Patience is a virtue with growing demand between the two ends.
Ask what others need before asking yourself
Things change in a second, world can look gloomy sometimes, but keep looking anyway
Shower and Bath are two different things dad.
We are all born with survival instincts and human condition, but when left to its means, can manifest to selfishness and sin long-term. Moral conduct is learnt, trained and made to habit and it’s not a birth measure. Dad can course correct as much the 3yr old.
Though reproduction is a human condition often by pseudo choice, its parenting that defines the meaning of birth both for the parent and the child.
self-imposed time outs are dangerous…. I know!
Kindness is not just a virtue it’s should the fabric of who you are, keep love unconditional they will hurt you and when they do you know that’s because you unconditionally loved them and changes nothing.
Who says 10 things should have 10 things dad, they are who we are and we were who they are. They are another chance at life through their eyes, enjoy every moment small to rest.
They start out on this earth, not knowing iPad passwords nor god nor race nor status, but you and only you– become your best, for they see it and you owe it and be there for every tear and joy as much as you can, cos in the end it’s all worth it.
At some point in an average adult’s life, there comes moment where their mind brings up something.
The inner mind reminds them of all their childhood dreams, aspirations, their original plan they set for their life. Some perhaps were of a child but yet some of those their true path founded on talent and their calling. And it reminds them in subtle ways that it’s over now, that it’s not possible anymore to chase those vibrant dreams. Its as if wonderful melodies are sung to a paralyzed man, the adults listens, he knows, he feels but he can’t move, he is come to a point where he can do anything about it, he can’t enjoy to its full spirit for he is near death and paralyzed in the inside. It’s at that point one truly dies in his heart. I think many of us suffer this and we carry on after with the rest of our lives; for the duties, for the temptations, for our senses and for the distractions. This human condition is often inevitable as seen in many. The only alternative truly is, if one wishes to go there that is- is to try, try to your hearts content, succeed or fail, keep trying. Given all your shortcomings, given all your failures, given your nay Sayers, Keep trying to your hearts content, damit keep trying with a smile on your face.
I think I have figured out the human condition on this planet, it’s not great, it’s not pretty. But there is hope. What bothers me insurmountably is the unknown condition of the universe.
Whether art or science or innovation: A creator’s ultimate goal is to make something much higher and greater than him and his life. So his work lives on after him.
Its almost as if a pure impression of god, if he existed. Nonetheless, its definitely the fabric of consciousness.
As a new dad to twins, I can vividly remember the days when my twins could not even sit straight, to the days when they army crawled and to now running like mad mierkats.
I think the same is true in one’s professional career. But sadly this transition is killed in the “professional” setting due to ridiculous self-infliction and mad social conformance. When I look back at my and others first job out of college, it was definitely the crawl. Understanding the deliverables and communication and overall work environment was the big part of the learning. I needed to part of that setting to understanding – it made sense. But what am I still doing that is different from then? let me be clear we are not talking about one dimensional salary. But the professional satisfaction from a rewarding career as it happens and unfolds in life.
Now that a decade has passed, its getting more and more evident, the careers of most and I mean most – like 8/10 got stunted at some point right, fairly soon I would say.. But we don’t evidently see it nor do something about it. We just accept it as reality without even being strongly aware of it.
I think everything in nature has amazing natural progression except for man’s thinking. I mean its sort of there but very little very slow in pockets! Even a tree in the four seasons, progresses remarkably. But man for some dinky reason has lost his way when it comes to how he spends his time during the day.
Career wise when did you walk ? are you still crawling ? How can you run ? start running.
I can write a whole book around it, but simple as this renders maybe. I think anyone who has a “whitecollar” job should wake up and assess their risk aversion and submission to bland zero thinking. I can understand bluecollar. They are bringing everything to the table mind and body. It’s tough but they have coped with it. But all of us have to wake up. I do realize there are some who will find the comfort and risk aversion in current state more than others appealing. Leave them alone. But those who can see must act. For it’s who will slowly shape it for them and the rest.
I think a little crazy and a bit loose are critical ingredients to be a successful entrepreneur. If not the world would weigh you down to a quiet halt before you even start.
The fear of one dying someday can only be subdued by one’s purest commitment to duty and responsibility. The greater ones duty and responsibility is, the lesser is their fear of death.
Whether you are a father or a solider or both, it is this strength that drives valor in the field you fight in.
This is a weapon in the wrong hands and a great pointer to the masses.
No matter the hurdles; committing to your duty and responsibility is very important to overcome this fear.
Furthermore, living a life filled with purpose which is defined by duty will set a precedence of your existence, that no matter how or when you die, your life will be known and praised.
The desire and making time to help people only when things are going good for you, is a simpletons approach. Making it part of how you live your life each day, makes you truly a superior being.
Researchers chalk helping tendencies to chemicals and hormones and past experiences. But it’s not entirely true. Wisdom and Outlook greatly shapes it.
No matter ones age, the remaining innocence in his or her outlook towards life, and in their everyday moments and the purity of heart when understanding the world is the only unbiased foundation of spirituality. From which it emanates.
Here is why and one of few reasons why Christians and Christianity is going to fail in the US. And further deteriorate the religion as a whole.
I see this all the time, in corporate America, supermarkets and even in some churches.
“Christians” in their extravagant egotistical attires and selfishness have made church talk a filler conversation. It’s this thing one can talk about to show “yea b***h, I have a moral righteous high ground too..” I take every week. It is shallow, shameful and more dangerously killing Jesus’s teachings at the roots. No wonder you can’t tell why your child is not into jesus!
Hey you are free to choose and express yourself. I am all for that. Don’t be shallow and ignorant is all. Try to overcome it and reflect, that’s all I ask. For I promise you will realize more than you know today. May be you will speak differently.
I am being judgemental ? No, just an observational type and I detect root causes and slow degradations much better than most, thats all.
Craving and possession of unnecessary materials, material temptations and excessive hours in front of the television are all precipitations of an un-trusting lonely life, which is full of emotions and heart yet without much needed human connections. What I fear of these, are those that are made by choice for they are misguided, of ignorance and lack of will.
Its as if a mind rushes to good yet poorly chooses to fill, big yet tender gaps of the heart with pompous trinkets of human ways.
Excluding Jesus and including the early catholic church, today’s civilization, religions and including corporate america. Why is Power largely and continued to be defined as dominion to destroy or take by force or perceived granted authority to kill at will ?
I don’t want nor like this power.
I think when we as a civilization overcome this misconception, we will truly live on this planet and may be even understand Jesus for that matter.
I also think when one overcomes this personally, he or she makes a human stride of wisdom and inner peace.
Its spring, the animals like us come out of their holes, to see it. But too many die too soon too sadly on the roads by vehicles destined to move us to enjoy nature.
I have taken to doing something
Every time I see a poor lifeless one on the road that was unsuccessfully trying to cross the road for food or its mate or its little one. I say sorry. No matter what I was thinking whether I am happy or sad or frustrated. I say “sorry”. And I mean it to the creature whatever little to nothing it means. I still say “sorry”.
Sorry that we are the fools on this earth, sorry we are the biggest fools on this earth. Sorry we ignored your life so carelessly. Sorry though we are so stupid we are given the greatest responsibilities on this planet. Sorry we have not risen to care for life yet. Sorry one of ours killed you for no reason. Sorry we are not mature as a race as few still seek pleasure in killing their brethren. Sorry we are destined to repeat and grieve. I say I am “sorry”.
How am I to embrace a religion, when majority of its idiosyncrasies lies or results in violence and bloodshed?
(On NPR: I heard a Muslim father cry over his son’s body killed by Buddhists extremists, he while crying in pain and agony said “I used to be sad when my son got a small bruise, but now here is his body lying there. What can I say…”)
I am not a Muslim, but a father to my children. And I’ve heard enough over the years to be sure to say this.
Every religion wants to obliterate the other, if it’s not the religions or its tenets and only man’s interpretations. Then we created them anyway isn’t it? I certainly don’t need that.
Though not everyone is making money, anyone can make money. It is I believe more than that. Its about recognizing your talent and fulfilling a purpose and a cause. Doesn’t matter how big or how small it is or your gift is or is not. It’s about you doing what you are gifted to while rendering a value, no matter where you are placed on this earth and the color of your skin.
True leaders when placed among middle ranks in mediocre and unwise management rise to challenge it and when there is only the risk of vendetta and retaliation in response, they leave the group to form their own. It’s a much wiser decision to abandon ill-willed, self-centered and stubborn members than to waste time shoring them. Such groups will corrupt and take good leaders down with them. Leave before its late.
It is important to remind yourself of the harships, in your upbringing, your challenges and how you overcame them. It is important to remind yourself, how you saw others and adults at that time cry in loss, cry in grief, cry in pain, cry their last breath and of what’s left of them after they have gone. It is important to remember how strangers then and strangers now helped you move along the way. Its important to remember. It’s important to remember your toughest past.
When remembered of what you have been through and what all you have overcome in the years, the task in front of you today becomes a pebble and well surmountable. And you won’t be lost and caught in the weeds of silliness. But direct, strong and clear headed. For you know your past, you know your being. You are all that has been you now. That is like a million you’s in you right there at that very instant. You are mentally indestructible in the present moment, for you have been in the past, your strength today is the sum of all past; nothing deters you from your will.
Sorrow becomes an arsenal for the focused and strong mind. It inhibits shallow temptations of the flesh and devices the mind to be sharp and on task with valor and dignity. Your strength today is the sum of all past and to be.
After typing my last blog, I realized I am not anywhere close to being a good writer nor can I articulate my thoughts, and especially my feelings to words. the letters I weave together are dead and static. They are not alive at all even though the intent behind it was exhilarating. I suck at “blogging”. But I am going to do it anyway, *** ever!
You know of that place we all have in our minds, in our memories vivid and bright. For many, we have a place from our childhood. Place growing up, where we were taken to as a child and later on we would go there by ourselves, for that calmness, for some serenity, for some loneliness, for some tears even at times. A special place… that one special place that speaks to our heart, and yet to the mind.
For some of us, there is more than one place. I do too. But there is one that stands out on the top. As I sat this morning in my car, in traffic – 20F cold weather. I thought of this place. No it was not the cold that made me think of it. I don’t know why anymore I went there in my mind . But I know I remembered it, as I sat there when red lights and exhaust fumes were glaring my windshield.
For me that place is a quiet part of a shore line, yes by the beach. I don’t go there anymore, because I can’t. In fact it is on the other side of the pond. It may not look the same anymore, it’s been years. Always afraid that it won’t speak to me the way it did back then or may be it always will. It’s not a fancy beach. No trees, No turquoise waters, no rocks. It’s just an ordinary beach that you would easily turn away from if you were driving past it in your car. There are probably million beaches like that. But this one is special to me.
My favorite time to go there was usually between 5-6AM. No crowd, a person or two in the far-off. Totally like a date between you and the place. I would just sit there watch the waves go to and fro. It would give me much happiness just being there. Sometimes a like a burden gets lifted off your chest. The second yoke end being taken on evenly with another….. The fresh breeze as it caresses your face. The birds trying to catch something to eat, usually crows, but they behave as though were enjoying the place too. everything was calm and gentle. The sun as it rises shapes the sky rapidly on the horizon. The rays quickly fill up the blue sky. But just then just at that moment, the place wakes up. It’s truly beautiful. It’s like you are one with the earth as it happens. I know big tree hugger words – NOT.
It’s alive to you. And you are alive with it. The sound of the waves play that quiet melancholy, melody only your heart can sing to, lips are lost. The breeze moves you slowly as they talk of the footprints on and of the place in time. It’s lovely. You see yourself on the sand, the breeze, the water. Your heart is in love with that moment. Your heart is everywhere in that place. I guess it’s that moment what many would define as being one with the place.
I don’t get it. For a week’s show and a few’s ego. You go cut a nice beautiful tree and prop it inside your house and dress it with up lights and balls? That tree was fare more beautiful when it was rooted deep in the ground swishing in a gentle breeze, a warm haven to birds in the cold winters. Why did you kill it now ?
What’s worse is a day or two after Christmas it’s next to the trash. Yea some shoved upside down inside the trashster. The respect cycle it goes through in those few days is appalling.
I am not a tree hugger, buts this is stupid and chalking it to Christian tradition and values. Humans covet stupidity like no other species on earth.
Anyone who admires and appreciates the grandness of nature or someone who tries to understand the human condition or god for that matter, will know where I am coming from.
The further away from reality, the deeper one is with it (without any influence of course). And the further away from reality, the further one can shape it.
Respect should not morph into subservience and homage. Respect is its own. Understanding and mastering this goes a long way in society and in ones maturity.
...my mind wanders to my setbacks and my disappointments. How I have failed and how I continue to fail in certain things taunts me. I try to justify it’s a human condition though I know I am better than that. At First I find reasons or faults in others, but I know I contributed to things not them. I force my mind to my own flaws and failures. We are creatures of circumstances, but to a great measure circumstances are creatures of us.
When I flounder in such, I cannot help but think of what could drive humans to be in much greater sadness, pain and hardships. I wonder what were ones choices and what were thrusted upon them.
Many had no choice. And Many did and chose very wrong.
I have a luck of finding documentaries on cable TV that reveal the mass shootings and bodies of people pulled out of gas chambers during Hitler’s reign. I find them in troubled moments which never helps or may be it helps too much.
I foolishly imagine what would go through my head before that bullet breaks my cranium. Will I be in fear of the pain to be inflicted upon me. Will I be crying for my end. Will I moan the deaths of those who were shot before me and my kids and family to die after me. Do I know their fate? Did I hide them ? Or they already shot. My stomach turns and my eyes cannot hold. Do I accept or resist reality inducing more pain. This is a never ending thought.
I can not accept mankind is capable of this. But logic and facts that lay infront of me confirms it’s the case. I am destroyed.
I keep running this thought over and over again until there is nothing left of me that’s clear and sharp. I am mentally tired. This thought keeps running on an infinite loop on certain days some days in the background, for I don’t have an answer, what would I be then, in that instant of departure from all I know, without my free will, and in pain, agony, defeat and suffering, and it destroys me.
Yesterday, It happened again, this time I added the glimpse of a show on Gengis Khan. He was worse, killing abusing women and children of his enemies. Millions died because of him, its just so away in time that he is forgotten more than Hitler. And videotaping did not exist during his time. What bothers me is, though these were two, Hundreds of men and women followed their orders and killed innocent people.
I am ashamed of what we are and what we can do. In these moments of thoughts of what we as a species have done to each other I cannot even grip the idea or concept of God. It seems meaningless and furthermore, projects as yet another dangerous idea that could lead to millions facing tragic deaths. If I was that jew dragged to the pit to be shot with hands tied and hundreds watching and waiting. With no hope, and endless tears, and loved ones killed in front me and or to be the next day or day after. The bullet is all I want.
It has become more apparent and perhaps obvious now. Life will only keep increasing the constraints on you via family, day job (career) and health. So the sooner certain critical things are bolted down or accomplished and set in cruise control, the better.
I feel or estimate that I have dropped the ball on 5 good years of my life. Though many would say that’s nothing, I know it’s a lot. And each last year is a crucial year for the next few after it. And 5 younger years are expensive than 5 older.
I think I made some poor choices in education out of sheer ignorance or lack of understanding. I think this is probably because of a character or personality flaw. I am aware of it now, and know how to navigate it and with it. However, the same flaws allowed me to make some good family choices. But both in aggregation only have increased my family commitments and constraints in total. Time is less and spread thin is the norm.
In order for people to respect you and honor your values. It has to be more than what they encompass and encompass what they do.
For a simple example: If you are at work 8 -5. Nothing great about it. But if you are there every day each day, you are there rain or shine or snow at 8 and leave at 5. It will be respected. Or if you are there always at 7:30 and leave at 5:30, it will be respected.
Basically when you do what others do with more quality, rigor, dedication, and consistent involvement it will be respected and appreciated. This is very true on a corporate/business setting.
Obesity and physical health is also another example. It is socially vital to keep fit as much as your body and mind will allow and endure to keep up your health. That will be respected.
From being a person of flesh, I need to become a person of spirit. There are things that are vital to keep the body alive and equally important are those that keep the mind alive.
Man has to live by a vision and a code. If he can fulfill the former and maintain the latter. He has lived a full life no matter the duration of the stay.
Greece, China, India, Egypt, Rome and Mesopotamia were legendary civilizations. Legends! They once marked the world of their success, sophistication, scientific advancement, might and bravery. But today they are mediocre countries filled with poverty, famine, uncertainty and pain all over. Why and how? What went wrong and when did it go wrong? Did any try to prevent it? Is there a chance? They are reduced to poorly presented travel brochures today.
I was born and raised in one of them. I care, I always will and I want to understand. History is fragmented. It only remembers the joyful and painful, but never accounts the gradual degradation or progression of a society or civilization. They tend to pin it all on one or an anecdotal realm.
I think such legendary civilization fell because they were too rooted in a stagnant tradition. Their values were so “high” it prevented opportunity and progressive growth. It was rooted deep that it was strong and it failed to see right versus wrong. The civilization had cohesion, but direction was the challenge and it remained in the hands of few. And few bad apples of the barrel eventually ended it. Selfishness of few demanded the ruin of many. I think that’s the true story.
Now, I don’t want ideologists and extreme radical conservative or traditionalist (a.k.a. idiots) get all worked up here. We have to understand our failure to move forward. I am NOT asking to embrace a foreign culture or direction not at all; instead, I just want to progressively move its own culture and tradition. It has to take its best and move it and discard the rest that kept it divided and wasteful. For instance, its rich heritage has to be respected. Its respect for family values and elders needs to be preserved. Its ways of respect to each creed must be honed and at the same time segregation must be abolished. Education and care must be free and available to all. Its spiritual values preserved and nurtured and idol and demi god worship of pure insecure sense gratification must be abolished. Only on the day a nation like India takes bold steps forward will she raise again. And this time she won’t fall, for her sons will hold her strong. All said, RIGHT LEADERSHIP, VISIONARY LEADERSHIP IS CRITICAL IN ALL MATTERS OF THE ABOVE.
If a man keeps recalling his distant successes, he has done nothing in his present day and definitely has no plans for the future. He is an empty container that has been reverberating out of an accidental stone. Don’t confuse with this the memories shared by our elders for that could be wisdom and inspiring words. But I am talking about the younger and the mentally weak. Who recount one accidental success over and over again.
I am starting to realize my mistake. I am waiting for that one great day far away, for something good, for that someone kind, that I fail to see today.
Living richly has nothing to do with wealth. And treating people lovingly has nothing to do with being loved. Mediocre souls seek returns higher ones simply give.
As one goes through the daily stuff of life. Often in tragedy and or in pain one stops to ask why all this. When there is no answer. We move on with what we know where we stood when we stopped to ask.
Marriage can not be a selfish affair neither a selfless one. Certainly the latter is loving, foolish but enduring. Great is the love where both are selfless for one another. True love perhaps. I am selfish enough to yet feel it. Yet greater is that love where each give up a little for the other any day. For it is kind and virtuous and the love that binds the two eternally and practically! I love you sweety.
One has to take the words of god, if, first away from the religion, put it in oneself and mix it, mix it. Mix it thoroughly, until truth and realization emerges in you.
Kids. They give me the will to live and the courage to die.
I don’t mean that in a morbid way at all. It’s as though they give a new meaning to an old word. They take something from you and keep it safe in them. You no longer have the burden of carrying this unknown thing you carried all this time with you, as they have it safely with them.
I am a father of two now. I get it. Its work, is it rewarding, really I don’t know. Is it worth it? absolutely. I know the world is yet to part its perils and knowledge upon their lives. I know it may not be this way for long. I know they will grow out of us. But their innocence as babies is beautiful. And my love for them will be the same. If god were to come down and show you and me what unbound innocent love and affection is. It’s those little ones in your arms, quietly smiling at you, as though it was an unsung moment of heaven and earth meeting quietly. Trusting your arms around them as they cuddle their love and innocence upon you. I have never seen god with my eyes, but I have seen them smile and that would do for now.
exploring the universe is the extension of a pursuit that started 5000 years ago in us. We have just begun. Its driven by the primal fabric of the human spirit. We will continue to explore the universe as long as we survive in this universe whether on this earth or elsewhere.
I know now what friendship is. And I know now I have a friend.
Thanks Man. For seeing that I believe in my dream. For staying up to help me in my journey. For always being sincere and honest with me. For helping me with things I never cared for and can not learn. Thanks for waiting for our children to sleep to call and tell me you fixed the issue. Thanks da.
Life wouldn’t have been same without you all these years. I hope I stood by you too.
I will NOT poke one eye to see with the other. I will NOT forget India to remember US. If India were to be my birth mother, US would be my step-mother. I love her both equally. One taught me life and the other made me live it. One instilled values and the other gave me freedom to cherish those values.
I belong to her both. She is mine and I am hers like the sons of this earth. I pride and will bask in the success of these two great nations. I walk tall in their spirits and the energy of life they have in me.
Starring at the popcorn ceiling got me thinking about the universe again. What if both came into existence with no clear intent. I mean why make the ceiling that stupid with so many little irregular some smudged some sticking together drops? There are probably billion+ drops on the ceiling, sounds awfully familiar. Does that one drop have a purpose, let alone the rest? Not really.
But they came about for a completely irrelevant mysterious reason (in both cases)
laziness prevails again, if only I read my own blogs frequently I could have avoided it. So many good thoughts went lost in my head, will it ever come up or come forward again ? just dont know. I almost have to blog during my long lonely drives.
I am a bit disappointed with myself. I am doing – repeating the mistake I would never do. It’s almost like I am someone else in the inside and I have another outer me and letting it decay and letting it stray carelessly and irresponsibly. Like two concentric circles the inner me and the outer me. The inner me turns at 90 miles per hr but the outer at 3 miles. I don’t know how it got this bad. But when I realize how i don’t know that’s when it dawns on me that i let it become chronic in the past few years.
If you think about a simple wheel which has an inner wheel that has to spin to turn the outer wheel which then moves on the road ( might add a pic to explain). To gain traction on the road of life two things need to happen
1. the outer wheel needs to get traction on the road (of life)
2. the inner wheel (gear) should engage and propel the outer wheel and not slip. You follow ?
I let it slip, so the inner wheel kept turning but it never engaged the outer wheel, and the outer wheel kept moving aimlessly, stopping, moving here and there on the road. I let this be. I am at fault
So what are these ??
a. inner wheel = yourself, your mind, your spirit.
b. outer wheel = your body, the perceived image of you by others, your definition per your career, family, workers
c. road = life
I always told myself to not let this happen, i have caught it now, but i knew it all along, i was not supposed to allow this and now the slip and less traction and the wandering is showing up on my career, family time and more importantly health. it has affected my health!
it’s never late to do the right thing, so here I go to engage and propel and move.
Now, you are only as good as the dumbest in front of you. And often the brighter ones ahead of you as slow to get this and slowing you down even more due to the dumbest one ahead of all of you.
Think about this both in your career or work place and while driving. And be safe.
“Third World” Which ill-repute coined this word and why is it still getting used by many today.
Calling a nation a third world nation is as bad as calling an African American a negro. The usage is utterly derogatory and condescending and revokes a sense of ill placed pride and ignorance on the one using it.
If my knowledge is right there is just ONE world, One god forsaken earth spinning around the sun. Where is the second and third.
When I heard educated people use that term “inadvertently” in a proper corp setting, it just irks me completely. I can not help but judge and ridicule their level of ignorance and pathetic small mindedness.
FYI: I like and respect people of all races and color, the majority and the minority, that’s the great thing about this nation, this world for that matter, we are one and the same.
Antimatter- we get it. If one digs dirt/earth and piles it up, you leave a hole on the ground and a pile, anti-matter and matter respectively. We get it. So stop harping on it.
Dark matter- yea, yea
Universe is huge and several billion years old – we get that too
Big Bang- Oh yea we got that.
If a ADD like me could figure a few things out, why they hell is it taking these astrophysicists this long to figure these things out. Your box dinners not good? Feeling lonely are we?
I can bear with “ego” polluting reasoning and rationale in many things of life. Things like religion, politics, racial segregation. economics etc, I get it. But when it comes to the god forsaken pursuit of truth of outer space, the origin of the universe and ‘related things’, guys/physicists in particular just knock it off would you. We are one in this pursuit, cant you behave in that premise or class of thinking?
I am just getting tired of these bearded and vacuum thinkers, these anti-social long haired clowns, so called astrophysicists and astronomers coming up on these paid cable channels like science, history, discovery and farting out random ridiculous theories about the universe.
You know people are not idiots, you guys keep up with this random ego driven universe or creation theories with no founding on anything. In other words theories built on top of theories with no experimental observations. People are going to catchup. And the when next round of “government funding” comes along, your research grants won’t even be enough for toilet rolls where your theories should be kept. These guys are no different to those money laundering religion channels selling “miracle water”.
Time out: btw I am not asking you to introduce god in the mix or religion or anything like that, just get your/the facts straight and don’t be pulling origin theories left and right out of your.. and chalk it to quantum mechanics.
Cant you morons work together with your peers, butt heads, whatever and figure out what best explains? Are you so needy you want that media time that bad, when stuff and theories are that immature and to become ass clowns instantaneously?
Here is THE Question: We get the birth of matter, BUT how and where did the black invisible dark space come from, in which matter was born ‘somehow’ (the subject of your theories). What is the dark invisible empty space (I know its not empty ok), But where does the darkness end, what are the boundaries of that dark emptiness ??
And you can shove all your origin of matter/stars/ galaxies theories up….that is old news.
Even I could explain that.
Also that curiosity sci-tv show in which Stephen Hawking appeared and explained that there was no reason for the big bang (no causality) and there was nothing before that is/was/will be BS. But I will continue to respect him and his work.
Don’t even get me started on “multi-verses”. It’s like a fool endedup ordering a pizza, finds his pizza nicely sliced-up in a box, goes around telling everyone that he ordered one and got 12! Dumbass.
Creation and universe is near and dear to me, gloves come off.
Laziness is not a vice nor a lack of discipline, it is a prevalent human condition, a state of mind that exhibits itself in both the sliver and overall.
What we tend to observe about it is usually the obvious, but laziness is masked all over in various forms. In the Mundane, non-risk oriented, complacency, even many aspects of one’s faith and beliefs are and could be its symptoms.
Sleeping and couching too much is not the only form of laziness, those are the simple symptoms of this greater human condition.
But laziness is also a peace keeper, a tax collector, a rule enforcer, a non-game changer, routine-builder. A building block of society when it’s symptoms are light to moderate.
When the condition exceeds it’s master,i.e. stronger symptoms, we get the opposite effect: we get poverty, violence, corruption, inequality, etc.
Keep in mind the above are also derivatives of other aspects/conditions of life and not just this. Also note the symptom connection, what is the cure you ask ?
I like talking to trees once in a while, sounds like a mad man talking isnt it.
But lets see whats mad and what isn’t. We strap ourselves on a metal tube and shoot ourselve out 30,000 ft in the sky while listening to ipod. Its not that different from the circus act of a guy being shot from a cannon. Add these to the cannon man; such as few propellers, flat extensions and and some round rubber they are one and the same.
And we strap our 200 lb flesh to 2ton of metal and jet through settled tar and gravel, we fight over whose “god” is stronger. We forget we all came from one place and behave as though we are from different planets.
We eat and pass in places separated by2 inches of wood or “drywall”. We wrap ourselves in deadskin or dead fur and call it leather n fashion. We reproduce out of no reason, purpose, or intent and instead blame it on Love and God
We throw away our lives in the name of income and day jobs. We rush through life as though we will have another chance. We live in social settings that conform us to nothing. We socialize with utter sham and deceit. We shop because we saw someone else do it. We waste our evenings and nights watching others do dumb things and call it entertainment.
We die believing there is more to life. Now, can I talk to trees ?
Why do the so called “artists” have an attitude. I cant stand most of them. There are some down to earth, wonderful artists. But most of them are just holes.
I dont understand where they get thier snob/I am supreme behavior from ? Of all people, if they are gifted I understand being confident, but why be snobby, you have a talent a gift wont that make one stronger and humble at the same time? Idiots.
I am not going to waste my time with the beliefs of heaven and hell, and those who have a problem with it can go to either I don’t give a.
I am not describing about faith and god here, wasting the present in the name of rewards in heaven or repercussions in hell seems just dumb. If you have to believe in those to believe in god you might as well shove it. Let your moral compass be your pure faith if you have one or your clear conscience if you have one.
Heaven is what you make of it, your loved ones smile upon you is heaven. Your willing help to a stranger in a surprise moment is heaven. The smile on a starving poor kids face after a quenching meal is heaven. Live in those, you are in heaven.
And man’s inherent greed creates hell.
I don’t like the idea of heaven and hell. Don’t waste time on this earth, period. The rest is over before you know it.
“Lack of purpose leads to violence. War is the only exception, where it’s purpose is fully misguided.”
Our species can not handle a purpose-less pursuit. Its fear manifests into beliefs, wants and desires. It hides in faith, religion and judgement. When it doesn’t surrender in its chosen vessel, it erupts, conflicts, voilence is born.
I think I am a morning person, but the usual morning routines are often not for a morning person. Which probably makes me not a morning person. But I think I’m a morning person, like on Saturdays, Sundays, and all Holidays, am pretty sure I am.
America is the land of the free and the home of the brave.
Immigration is fine fabric of this great nation. The roots of immigration run deep in the veins of her people. Its rich tradition and values are founded on the fertile grounds of converging cultures and traditions. Its heritage is seeded in hard work and in triumphs of the human spirit.
To an immigrant the two lands are like his two eyes, no one could ever pluck one to save the other. The two nations are like his mothers, one gave birth and nourished his dreams and the other raised him to strive for his dreams and shaped his destiny.
Every many whether born in the US or came to the US has equal rights and duties bestowed upon him. Its ones duty to respect the land he walks and shelters on. Laws may differentiate the rights of the born from the migrant, it is archaic, rudimentary at best and the passionate sons will wake up to its inequalities, they will win over it like working anvils under the storm.
A man who is free and who pursues his dreams. Who means no harm nor hatred, but wishes prosperity to those with whom he has chosen to dwell. A man whose hard work and sweat, has chipped in for roads and schools, whose honest income has restored life to elders of the land; a man who seeks passionately to make his destiny in a land that offers him a chance. America belongs to him, it is his god given honor. He is an American whether he was born on her lap or not. She owes it to him and no law can snatch her true spirit. No law can cheat him of his rights on the great nation.
Fools assume birth rights; no part of the world offers any birth rights. Lives are only born with scars and names with retributions as history shows time and again. All is earned in time and through endurance with honor and determination. Being American is not a birth right nor a right bestowed to trespassers. It is earned by valor, the passion to make ones destiny, and by striving for a cause beyond his, and for the people of the land he also calls home.
She belongs dearly to those sons who uplift her for who truly she is, a triumph of the human soul and the enduring love of Mother Nature. No race owns her, and no race shall deprive her powerful spirit. America is the land of the free and the home of the brave. It doesn’t matter if you got here or were born here, she is not your god given right, earn her spirit and become true sons of her labor.
Often young lovers and romancers struggle to gage the depth of their relationships. Often they misjudge or conclude incorrectly what each other means to them. Who is to blame; their perceptions of relationship and reality is so clouded by pretenses, make-believe virtualities, 1 word texts, chat rooms . They are sucked into a mirage of shallow values from movies to movie stars and their addictions, from night clubs to pool parties. Are these the events and times they use to gage their heartfelt relationships ?
To yo’all I tell you:
A romantic journey is not measured by the loud moments but the silent ones.
I always try and do all the right deeds before I take a flight. I wish I live everyday with that sense of awareness and stay on the ground or fly on a contraption I made!
There is so much of art around us everyday, whether it’s our binder metal or the design of a plane.
Art has form and no form on occasions , art is not always random or just a spurt of thoughts, there could be science to it.
If one choses to; one could add science to form art, any art and vice versa.
When people are blind to everyday art yet craze over canvas art/artists it’s ridiculous. They are no art experts. They have limited vision or may be confined taste. Understandable!
Canvas art is way overrated that’s all. O I don’t want to even get started on contemporary…. !
I realized if I don’t pay enough attention life can just go by before I get to know me and rest. And it can happen each day and any day and all day and every day. And Before I know its over.
A wise and wealthy man is like a medicinal tree who keeps curing those in need. One should seek wisdom first before seeking the other, as with enough wisdom any wealth is enough to serve.
One has to believe in a Creator. If there is no creator and we were just random happenings in space and time, and that’s just a total waste of any conscious life and ever more at death.
I fear nature. I also fear that we keep ignoring her when she is truly nice to us and barely notice her when she intimidates us. We run for cover or figure out means to “protect” and carry on! Truly worries me, how more insensitive can we get?
This morning, more than a mile of bumper to bumper, the sun shining as gracefully as ever, the gentle breeze, the trees whispering their subtle melody. A free man can not ask for anything more from this earth. Yet 40 out of 45 cars in front of me had windows rolled up, some lame music playing am sure. The 5 were smoking.
Immigrants respect the nation you were born in and honor the nation you live in. The former is your mother who gave birth to you and the other, the one who raised you. Do your duties as a son to both.
American is not a birth right. Its bestowed to one by the values one cherishes. Its something that may be granted legally, but must be truly earned by one’s character. Lastly, it should be taken from those who feel they are above the law and above all.
Unlike almost all other nations of the world, America is the only nation that was truly founded by immigrants from around the world. Let it be, for thats still its worth and foundation.
And to those who were born here and to those who got here. you are the same in her eyes and value, protect and respect her equally.
Being American is never about race or color, but virtues.
I secretly know I am not special, but I always feel special. I grab everything that life has to offer to feel that way each day. I know that makes me special.
I realized I was boxed to myself, but then pondering the reason and need made me realize there was a strong history to it. Often people prefer average interactions.
My worries often err towards the fear of opening up only to find situations with people where they really are dry or can not handle the flood. More importantly, I fear the sight of shallowness, hopelessness and hatred. Few minutes into things I will know If I will lose them in the next few. Now humbly said, not always I make that call.
The knowledge of life and the scarcity of it, among it are many caught in the transformations of reality that sways between pain and joy. It is determination that exceeds them and perseverance to endure through the dark nights and hollow days that enriches the mind and body to weather the unknown. ‘God’ is an infinite word with a limited definition on mediocre minds and unknown rest in the rest. An entity to inflict control upon the prevalent randomness, a fulcrum to open the minds in to the vastness of ones potent. A subdued form to serve the wishes and desires, all in one word. The averages have taken it to poor extremities in forms and concepts, yet even within those one can attain light if one perseveres to seek, and weather his hope to attain pure consciousness. Consciousness is a power word for a powerful existence. An existence in its lighter form can transcend time and moment. In its real form can endure the eternal. Awake 1:1
American music is the gift of pure freedom and the passion in Indian melody is a remarkable consciousness of compassion. Both are a triumph of the human spirit.
An idle woman’s mind is the root of all evil and the simpleton’s is its pit. And the thoughts and words of either are nothing but rotten fruits of peril.
To my brethren, bear none such yield. To my sistren, Labor!!!
Death is an inexplicable truth. I have grown wise to pray and wish for a good life and a better death. The notion of Eternity often echoes the in-aptitude in males to accept reality and the bread of life. If all has to be explained; death is the granter of exceptions. Coming to embrace it is difficult, often reserved for the sick and religious. Religions promise its “after-glory”, the gate to divinity and so on. But this death is dark and pale. It’s clutches leaves no man untouched. Often falling asleep with a fading conscience is my painless imitation of death. And even that is dark as the conscience slips into the dark night of lone souls, that scream in vain. Pain is the sharp and acute addition to the endless sleep called death.
Man and his silicon world cheats death everyday in the cosmos. I can not but only be amazed and believe in daily divine interference to let this planet be as is, as the cosmos has more death than life. In its hallowed scatters of light and cold rocks, there is the emptiness of death and a possibility of our own planet gleans on the boundaries of sane thinking. Yet here we are, but I do doubt its continuance and its eternal glory. Death is a sad truth, but it certainly has driven us as a species to adjust life, and the values around it. We brave it in ways I still cannot fathom why. For instance the notion of Flight, sitting inside one big metal coffin we brutally thrust ourselves into the skies everyday, with tiny plastic straps on our laps. How did we end up like this ? Is it the wisdom that precedes our lives or the ignorance contained in it ?
Death certainly has its bitterness, but no man who has tasted it returned to deliver. Death is the token of punishment till date, and will always be. But why we nurture such hate is a shame and yet even the commoner has willfully wished life for himself and death for another. Can we cheat death ? We all have, and we all will, for a while.
Accept it, live with it, Death won’t come to you. But you will die only once. Oh the Pain! Death is the only form final absolution of one’s soul. Death is required for balance, Death is the way of life. Life that is reminded of death lives better. Death that is reminded of life, lived better.
In the chasm of our universe lies an inexplicable truth, and within the realm of such a grand scheme, is the vision of this silent universe. It amplifies ones deepest doubts and profound fears. But it is also in this far sight vision, one’s belief is born, and so are his worldly perils. But beyond all this, is the immediate wisdom that tides to fade all the earthly differences, that chain him and his brethren. Life is Born, and his consciousness awakened!
Oh Tree, thy beauty that graces me ever so gently everyday
Your leaves wither yet you stand tall,
You know they shall pass in Fall yet you stand tall
And when spring comes, like the treasures beneath the sea,
Your million jewels gather in and on thee.
Oh Tree, oh merciful tree, even as the birds feed from thee
How humble thy grace and yet art so strong
You have seen me et all, and eons have passed since you grew this tall
Oh Tree, you carry fresh snow flakes like your own new born,
she paws your barks, yet you stand tall
In gloomiest times, and even when the sun forget his ways
You stand in everyone’s awe, your sway like a lover’s song.
When all seems to end, you raise the hope it shall pass too
When the wind affrays, you gently fade it away
Multitudes of you stand quietly watch us mortal wither in air
Do you speak when we close our eyes, do you speak when we are awake,
Do you listen to out shivers on stormy nights from outside.
The birds know you and your other, they visit you each year to pay their respect
Their feathers dance with your leaves in the afternoon breeze
Like wings of a bird, You cloud them from the heat and jittering nights
Your million jewels dangle in joy on a sunny day; they sing the melody of this earth.
The gentle music of my heart when I am on a walk
I see you on the road, and when I go home,
I wonder if one day you will utter a word, a whisper in my ear,
For my heart heard your glee on that fine morning;
when you spread thy branches like bird about to fly.
Oh tree, Oh tree if you could hear me cry out for thee
We hone you for many things everyday, we take you like we own you
Each day you give us the breadth of life, yet we forget you
We delight in thy warmth as you burn away,
Let us be, for we are ways away to true knowledge and glee
Oh Tree, if the heavens made stars for this earth
They shall be you and yours. The stars of this earth.
If life were to succumb to hard reality or to an unchangeable intellectual model where dreams are mere reflections of the deep unknown mind, then the face of reality would become a constant. But we see time and again that there is constant change, this denotes strongly the existence of a pure hidden pursuit in living beings which acts on an independent platform. This platform, converges into the trenches of hidden reality.
To unravel this structure one fundamentally needs time and the will or involvement to pursue it. Reality is rewritten with a constant image, an image too hard to completely cipher. An evolutionist might phrase it as a chaotic randomness that submits a strong pattern occasionally, however it is in this constant image that there lies the hidden pursuit of truth. An average human being dismisses or classifies reality into two subduable components of good and evil. It is not in every perception that the inner structure arises for exposure, only in those who are prone to openness and has the willingness to promote strong realizations, where there is no winning bargain or rewards -they can see the evidence of Truth or an essence that comes close to it. In a human mind impersonated by the name of truth but far more than it. Come of it Realization
God forgive me, forgive me for this forsaken path that I have taken this far,
Forgive me for I come to you in pain not fear
Forgive me for I am fooled by own and other
But hold me…
Bless me and keep me by your side
Let not the waste take over
Fill me with your purpose
Let me see my vision
Let me fill this earth with your glory
Allow me not to trespass
Let me be nimble to listen to you soft whisper that floats to guide
in those moments where I get lost
Give me your strength to protect the weak
Give me your glory to guide the brave
Give me your wisdom to walk the unsettled
Humble me when I don’t
Forgive me when I foolishly wander
Make me see your light in the day against the perils that sway in me
And your warmth in the night to rest me
Teach me your compassion for it’s the gift of the soul you sown
Accept me as yours
Remove me from the sin I walk in
Embrace me with your love
Allow me, Help me, Guide me to serve you
When the mind tries to go astray, Let your presence in me wake
AWAKEN ME
On the meadows far away
Far from our voices and its sway;
Shadows of joy that creep away
She works relentless much to dismay.
Seeing her cherub grow by the field,
She raises her prince with hopes and dreams
To see him grow she sleeps no more;
By the fields and by the barn
Her cries not heard and tears not seen
She spends her life for his needs.
She smiles with tears to send her son;
Follow his dream in a forgotten world.
Leaving her field and her barn,
He bids her farewell his morning star.
Far from the meadows and its sway
Where he left his mother far away
When the mind loses its clarity
and when the thoughts sway.
when there is rage in the eyes,
and knowledge seems a waste
When the walk has no path
and the heart with no joy.
When tears start to roll
seems like no hope……
A silence around and within
left to my own
cuddling in a faith unknown
For the world is big and bigger are my wounds
Sitting under an old tree,
asking it what does it know
when it just stood there all these years,
Sprung from a seed, now in the wood, a haven for many indeed.
Some roots crawled and some did not,
the wind blew hard, but it still stood strong
seasons played yet it stood hard.
It went through it all; yet that silence in it impresses me of all
And what it shared, the music of the leaves
like a smile of God.
It saw me and many more
lessons come in many forms.
A tree what a beauty it can be.
A silence, a hush with which is says it all
Why publish or blog all this, these thoughts, these “expressions of a conscious mind”? Why write and why publish them to all who can read and have means to do so ?
The reasons did have humble beginnings, as any one who keeps a journal or who wishes to reflect on days thoughts will understand and appreciate the need to write, document and reflect. It was pen and paper many months, but with advent of PC, why tinker with papyrus when you can add to things anytime from anywhere of the day.
But here it is on www, and that goes beyond reflection and can not be justified as mere “self” reflections, so there I was where I argued over and over with myself about the selfish nature of a publication of such sorts, and the neediness of oneself to be heard (or atleast be given the belief of being heard). Personally, I think some authors, bloggers, publishers, are just plain needy or self acclaimed pundits of knowledge which is nothing but a loud echo of ego and self vanity.
Now, for many it is arrogance and judgment that fuels the need to express into the burrows of this dark world, to correct, to steer and guide. No there is no guidance, if any there is only the road of burden for the already tired minds, in the hope of full liberation.
Why write and why publish? The very notion questions self-reformation. Self-reformation is absolutely 100% absolute. However it gleans on the outside world and our perception and senses to nourish its absoluteness, one may argue its relative-ness. It is a valid argument; however, it is in the essence and what it churns in one that makes it absolute. But even under those premises of “relative” absoluteness, there is no need or temptation to express outward, to write, to publish it openly. Is it honesty? Honesty has got nothing to do with it, period.
In many senses, I view and hope that may serve as a beacon of hope to those including me who battle the similar perceptions, visions, thoughts, bitter glimpses of reality every day and shore them to reason of refuting loneliness and gently resonate in their hearts that they are not alone in their thoughts and life.
A life rope to a stray, may be actually a hand to the visionary who stands apart, a rope that bolsters my hope as I reach out to you, to beach you ashore or at least to an island I habit in. The windows to a world of dreams and vision that rest on the shelves of time, fading yet echoing more than ever in space.
One of the reasons for writing is to free the most beautiful bird in us, our mind, its bound to fly eternally in this world free from peril but in the minds of many where it flutters its wing so gently to find more of its own. As a symbol of hope and the fine fabric that weaves our existence.
I like to leave it here, it is in the interest of our lives and of my kind it is written. Now I shall write and shall publish for the same!
The knowledge of life and the scarcity of it, among it are many caught in the transformations of reality that sways between pain and joy. It is determination that exceeds them and perseverance to endure through the dark nights and hollow days that enriches the mind and body to weather the unknown. ‘God’ is an infinite word with a limited definition on mediocre minds and unknown rest in the rest. An entity to inflict control upon the prevalent randomness, a fulcrum to open the minds in to the vastness of ones potent. A subdued form to serve the wishes and desires, all in one word. The averages have taken it to poor extremities in forms and concepts, yet even within those one can attain light if one perseveres to seek, and weather his hope to attain pure consciousness. Consciousness is a power word for a powerful existence. An existence in its lighter form can transcend time and moment. In its real form can endure the eternal. Awaken 1:1
In spite of ones personal, and full understanding of the worlds emotional experiences and sufferings, a person must aim to be a contagious, genuine source of happiness, kindness and peace. This is the greatest maturity of all in a person. Only this maturity can heal the future for generations to come.
I heard it loud and clear. Now the only question is, what am I going to do ?
As one goes through the daily stuff of life. Often in tragedy and or in pain one stops to ask why all this. When there is no answer. We move on with what we know where we stood when we stopped to ask.
ssly and irresponsibly. Like two concentric circles the inner me and the outer me. The inner me turns at 90 miles per hr but the outer at 3 miles. I don’t know how it got this bad. But when I realize how i don’t know that’s when it dawns on me that i let it become chronic in the past few years.
Ok first, i still have not figured how to rotate images here!
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